<BR>well, w and i had first joint session today and i felt it went ok...not great but not bad, then spent some time w/ her walked her back to work, and actually she brought me up to her office first time i was ever there...enjoyed so much spending a few minutes with her...i miss her so much and hate this separation even though i know it is what she wants/needs the thought of her not wanting to reconcile is making me very very sad especially after spending that time together today...when we left she said see how everyone here at work loves me...why couldn't you?...and she knows i love her more than anything in the whole damn world...i guess i am sad with myself for causing all of this...i am somewhat at a loss of words to describe the sadness that i am feeling at the thought of losing my w...i know i am trying to do all of the right things to rebuild and i know that in time she will decide what she wants to do...why do we hurt the ones that we love the most and hurt them the hardest? i'm sorry if this post is a downer...i know that i had many positives today...she did come to joint, she let me walk her back, she invited me up to work...i just miss her that's all...thanks for letting me vent...much peace and love ...trying hard

I know how you feel I have been seperated from W for some while now(10months). I'm tyring to fix our mess also. sometimes its good others not, but I'm not giving up. My family is what I want, and hopefuly get back one day. I see my W quit often I think that its even harder on me cause it would be easy for me to get together not so easy for her though.<P>HANG IN THERE<P>------------------<BR>brownphdt<BR>

TryingHard,<BR>I know how you feel, I am still seperated from my W, But we are talking and getting closer. It amazes me how much I miss her. <P>I think your W loves you, If she didn't she would not be going to joint couseling, Sounds like she is at least trying. Don't expect too much too fast. Give it time. I have been seperated from my W for 3 months, and only recently have we began talking again, Slowly we are becoming great friends again. I know it's hard when you see her, You just want more. That's normal.<P>Take care and enjoy the moments that you two are together, Let her enjoy you and who you are. Help her to remember the man she married. Good luck<P>------------------<BR>Rutger......One day at a time.<P><BR>