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Well folks, it's almost halloween, and while it's time to put out pumpkins and wear scary masks, sometimes the scariest mask of all is that mask worn by a wayward spouse.
They walk around and look like the person we knew. Talk like them (well when they're not ranting or demanding their way), but they have a dual side. There is the inner demon, the addiction within which has turned them into somebody else. This song, reminds me of the time period a few years ago, when my xwh turned into the person he is today...and the song was perfect for him.
He spiraled so far down, that he became almost a sub-human, if you can become one. Watch this video, and you will get it. The duality of the human state, when you allow the darkness of adultery into your life. It to me, clearly shows how adultery and addiction, or some monster from within, can turn you into a monster..or some kind of animal.
Change happens by listening and then starting a dialogue with the people who are doing something you don't believe is right. ~Jane Goodall
.....the scariest mask of all is that mask worn by a wayward spouse. They walk around and look like the person we knew. Talk like them (well when they're not ranting or demanding their way), but they have a dual side. There is the inner demon....which has turned them into somebody else. The duality of the human state, when you allow the darkness of adultery into your life. It to me, clearly shows how adultery and addiction, or some monster from within, can turn you into a monster..or some kind of animal.
I GET IT!!! The "Fog" of the Waywards is one description.....but that video is an excellent GRAPHIC representation. And Exposure.....is simply the REVEALING of the ANIMAL to those people who think they know your Wayward Spouse!! Yes......I get it!! Thanks Peachy.
BH(Me)= 55 WW(Her)=43 DD=24 (My step-daughter, been raising her since the age of 8, SHE'S MY DAUGHTER!!) Married=13 yrs Together=16.5 yrs THIS IS MY STORY WW moved out of the home = May 1,2011 D-Day=July 4, 2011 Dear Wife: I'm COMPLETELY CRAZY about you!.....as of Aug-2012 forget that last part....Good Luck to you and GOODBYE!! "Mourn the woman she was. Know the woman she is."
My xwh actually had, Bill, an almost demonic look to him when I'd see him at a sports event for my child. He was cheating on his affairage wife, and meaner than ever, and my child was actually afraid to go over to his home.
That video actually scared the poop out of me when I first saw it, and then the lyrics totally made sense. If you actually listen to the song, it explains how they are in a self-made hell of their own, how they can't control themselves.
The saddest thing ever was when my xwh was arrested and tried to kill himself in jail (a former ceo). It was around this time the song came out and I remember actually (and I was way post divorce and beyond feeling any sort of emotion for him except pity, definitely no residual feelings) falling on my knees praying to God that maybe my childs' father could hit rock bottom but not die.
They will throw their life away, into the gutter, and the descent will either be fast or slow. But it happens. To all unrepentant waywards. Sad, but true. They can choose to loose the animal within, but it would mean turning from the sin, and from the addiction.
Change happens by listening and then starting a dialogue with the people who are doing something you don't believe is right. ~Jane Goodall
....the lyrics totally made sense. If you actually listen to the song, it explains how they are in a self-made hell of their own, how they can't control themselves.
THAT'S what scared me the most!
Originally Posted by peachyisback
It was around this time the song came out and I remember actually...falling on my knees praying to God that maybe my childs' father could hit rock bottom but not die.
I've talked to God about that.....let my Wife hit bottom.....but not be physically injured. You are NOT alone there!
Originally Posted by peachyisback
They will throw their life away, into the gutter, and the descent will either be fast or slow. But it happens. To all unrepentant waywards. Sad, but true. They can choose to loose the animal within, but it would mean turning from the sin, and from the addiction.
And it means actually FACING that person that they see in the mirror!!! I am shaking my head and shrugging my shoulders as I say this....."And my Wife is MAD at ME because I exposed HER AFFAIR!?!?!"
BH(Me)= 55 WW(Her)=43 DD=24 (My step-daughter, been raising her since the age of 8, SHE'S MY DAUGHTER!!) Married=13 yrs Together=16.5 yrs THIS IS MY STORY WW moved out of the home = May 1,2011 D-Day=July 4, 2011 Dear Wife: I'm COMPLETELY CRAZY about you!.....as of Aug-2012 forget that last part....Good Luck to you and GOODBYE!! "Mourn the woman she was. Know the woman she is."
Peachy, I just watched the video and am virtually speechless. That is how I feel. I look in the mirror and try to see who I used to be and can't find her. I still see a demon. Every morning I wake up hoping I will survive the days "hell". That hell is my own mind/thoughts/feelings. I am my own worst enemy. But, yes, the addiction takes a hold of a wayward just like in that video. Thanks for posting it. It makes me feel like I'm not insane and that other people are suffering the same hell.....my husband's hell, however, is by far the worst kind of hell. CT
Me: WW41 Hubby: BH40...My Amazing forgiving man (CharpyTest) DD: 8 DS: 8 DD: 6 EA/PA: 3 years May 25, 2011 (Formal NC letter sent)
I can't escape this hell So many times i've tried But i'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal (This animal, this animal)
I can't escape myself (I can't escape myself) So many times i've lied (So many times i've lied) But there's still rage inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare I can't control myself Somebody wake me from this nightmare I can't escape this hell
(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)
So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal (This animal I have become)
BH(Me)= 55 WW(Her)=43 DD=24 (My step-daughter, been raising her since the age of 8, SHE'S MY DAUGHTER!!) Married=13 yrs Together=16.5 yrs THIS IS MY STORY WW moved out of the home = May 1,2011 D-Day=July 4, 2011 Dear Wife: I'm COMPLETELY CRAZY about you!.....as of Aug-2012 forget that last part....Good Luck to you and GOODBYE!! "Mourn the woman she was. Know the woman she is."
Very scary lyrics and video, but it is what it is. And the state of being wayward spreads to others..like the woman in the end.
To me, it reminded me of the day when the wayward wakes up, looks at the ow or om, EXITS THE FOG just long enough and realizes the affair partner is monster too, and decides to just run, run far away from it all, get away from that life.
Change happens by listening and then starting a dialogue with the people who are doing something you don't believe is right. ~Jane Goodall
Elements of "Nightmare" from Avenged Sevenfold fit;
Nightmare! (Now your nightmare comes to life)
Dragged ya down below Down to the devil's show To be his guest forever Peace of mind is less than never Hate to twist your mind But God ain't on your side An old acquaintance severed Burn the world your last endeavor
Flesh is burning You can smell it in the air Cause men like you have Such easy soul to steal (steal) So stand in line while They ink numbers in your head You're now a slave Until the end of time here Nothing stops the madness, Burning, haunting, yearning Pull the trigger
You should have known The price of evil And it hurts to know That you belong here, yeah Ooh, it's your [explicative deleted] nightmare
(While your nightmare comes to life)
Can't wake up and sweat 'Cause it ain't over yet Still dancing with your demons Victim of your own creation Beyond the will to fight Where all that's wrong is right Where hate don't need a reason Loathing self-assassination
You've been lied to Just to rape you of your site And now they have the nerve To tell you how to feel (feel) So sedated as they Medicate your brain And while you slowly Go insane they tell ya "Given with the best intentions help you with your complications"
You should have known The price of evil And it hurts to know That you belong here, yeah No one to call Everybody to fear Your tragic fate is looking so clear, yeah Ooh, it's your [explicative deleted] nightmare
Fight Not to fail Not to fall Or you'll end up like the others Die Die again Drenched in sin With no respect for another
Down Feel the fire Feel the hate Your pain is what we desire Lost Hit the wall Watch you crawl Such a replaceable liar
And I know you hear their voices Calling from above And I know they may seem real These signals of love But our life's made up of choices Some without appeal They took for granted your soul And it's ours now to steal
(As your nightmare comes to life)
You should have known The price of evil And it hurts to know That you belong here, yeah No one to call Everybody to fear Your tragic fate is looking so clear, yeah Ooh, it's your [explicative deleted] nightmare
"An expert is a person who has made all the mistakes that can be made in a very narrow field." - Niels Bohr
"Smart people believe weird things because they are skilled at defending beliefs they arrived at for non-smart reasons." - Michael Shermer
"Fair speech may hide a foul heart." - Samwise Gamgee LOTR
Elements of "Nightmare" from Avenged Sevenfold fit; You should have known The price of evil And it hurts to know That you belong here, yeah No one to call Everybody to fear Your tragic fate is looking so clear, yeah Ooh, it's your [explicative deleted] nightmare
Very sad, very scary...unfortunately, very, very accurate. I hope some WSs out there can realize this and begin to earn their F. This is horrible, but the truth. Too many people are caught up in the "feel good" of it all. Good representation though.
BS-me 1 child
Matthew 5:44 (CEV) "But I tell you to love your enemies and pray for anyone who mistreats you"
