Happy Halloween All! I haven't posted in awhile because I've kinda been on an emotional roller coaster and haven't felt like I could give anything positive to the board. UPDATE: My H and I have agreed to separate Dec 20th. That's the day my new apartment will be vacant. He wants to separate for 6 months to see if this mid-life crisis passes or is a life-time change. I am moving out because I really don't want the responsibility of the house and 7 dogs. I'm OK with it, but I'm up and down. One day I'm ready to move on with my life, next day I want to get down on my knees and beg him to keep our marriage alive.<P>Anyway, tonight we celebrated Halloween in our town and we did a Haunted House in our garage for the kids and had a great time doing it. It was very sad though thinking about never doing it together again. We didn't fight the whole week except for a minor set-back when I found an email from OW who had promised to leave him alone. She thinks it's OK to email him because she is just "his friend". I told her off pretty good and H sent her email and told her not to ever email him again. Was that good or just a show for me, I don't know? Sorry this is so long, but I just wanted to update everyone on what's going on and let you all know that even though I don't post much I keep you all in my prayers and find a lot of comfort in the things you say to each other. Thanks for being there when we need each other. God Bless You All!<P>Hugs!

It is never too late, I think that you should continue to make your home life as fullfilling as possible, even if you do seperate on dec. 20th, it is not a death sentence, you can wait for him to "see the light" as long as you want... He may or he may not, but it is your life and your decision to make. and then again you can change your mind every other week God bless you and keep working on your own life!

Thanks Lizam. It does feel like a death sentence sometimes. I have thought that I should be as loving and normal as possible right up to the day I leave to make him realize how it could be but then I think I'm just humiliating myself by letting him see how much I love him even though he doesn't feel the same. Does that make sense? Sometimes I have to fight myself to keep from reaching out and hugging or kissing him because I feel so vulnerable. I don't know what to do any more. There just comes a time when you just can't be used anymore and I think that's where I'm at. He wants his cake and eat it too. Anyway, thanks for your input.