I guess it is safe to assume this is a normal feeling on the part of the BS but, how do I over come it?

I take everything he says, or does't say as a direct insult to me..
An example.... if I get myself all dolled up to be intimate and he goes to sleep, I take it as he doesn't want me or find me attractive.
He will not kiss me unless we ARE going to be intimate and, I get upset because I know he had makeout sessions with the OW and I want that too.
I send him cutesy little texts about "later" and he will send back a stupid text like "your mom" thinking he is cute but, I am insulted. I am trying with every fiber of my being to feel wanted and loved by him like he did her and he just doesn't get it!
When I first found out about the OW he was ALL OVER ME... that fizzled in a month and it was back to me feeling awkward to be open with him and me feeling like I am undesirable... I am SO tired of feeling so sad and rejected.

Are you sure no contact is in place, why did things stop a month ago?
Seems funny to me......
Are you guys following a MB plan to put together a better marriage?
fill us in......

KayKay,

Here comes a ...

And it is because I want your M to make it, OK?

Get your butt back to your first thread and tell us what you are doing to snoop and make sure this A is dead. Because, again, there are some serious

With affairs, you have to assume the affair has gone underground/contact is continuing UNLESS you can verify (through snooping) that it has ended.

Here's a link to your first thread:

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Then kill the A. You must now by now that he just threw you some crumbs to get you to leave his affair alone.

He doesnt want you to leave. He wants TWO women. Find the A and kill it.

Ask the mods to merge both your threads. People cannot easily help if they have tosearch for your background in order to answer your question, cheers.

Say what? Did you read our other posts? Take any of the advice we gave you??

Yes but, still in the meantime, trying to rebuild and feel better about myself... these feelings are here even during this phase. I am trying to figure out how to come up with the money for these things I need.
I do believe that the Affair I found out about before is over. I have several reasons for believing that but, I can not say without a shadow of a doubt there hasn't been more since then. This is where I need to figure it out. I have gone through his phone and, his old one he just recently had to get rid of due to battery (I was able to put my battery and sim card into his phone and see all his stuff)
He left one of his three emails open the other day on accident and I was able to go through those.. I went through the trash, sent mails, drafts everything... either there is nothing going on at least on that account OR he is really good at covering his tracks which... they usually are aren't they?
He told me that I can have his passwords no problem (tho it was before) but, I decided to wait to actually get them. If I get them when he is willing to give them up, it just may be that he can get rid of it all before I see it... if I ask one day out of knowwhere and check while he is right there and couldn't have cleaned anything up if there needs to be.. then, I think I have a better chance of catching.. he offered them up and I acted like no big deal. I didn't want him to be on defense.
I am not sure if that is the right thing but, I sounded good in my head.
Also I have sat down to write the OW's H a letter.. I haven't got there yet but, I am a lot more willing. I know I have to, it is hard and I am closer to it.
I even created an email and everything to do it in.
Thanks for your advice ..

Have you put a keylogger on his computer?

Kaykay, have you exposed the affair to the OW's husband yet?

Did you tell your children about the affair? Did you put a keylogger on his computer?