We have a contract in hand for the house. Don't know if H has signed or not. He is in his zombie-like state right now. "Doesn't know...." I am fixing to leave work right now to get a head start on moving. Movers come in the morning to move me. <P>Son is doing well at school. Classes started yesterday and I called him. Asked if he was homesick. He said "Am I supposed to be homesick??" He is really doing well and has met a lot of people. Hope he will remember why he is there!!! <P>I have not heard from my daughter since I e-mailed her several days ago to give her my new phone number and mailing address. She is a hard nut to crack. Her sense of "family" and "home" is gone. She loved coming home to the new house.<P>I had a really hard afternoon yesterday. Cried a lot. My sister went with me to buy a microwave and TV. She is going to be there tomorrow to help me get set up and and she plans to spend the night.

Sorry Janie.

To make matters worse, he has hit rock bottom. He has cried for the past two nights. BUT -- he doesn't love me, isn't happy, doesn't know what he wants. Reality bites hard in the butt. <P>Right now I can't feel sorry for him. I have to take care of me. Did he feel sorry for me when I hit rock bottom last fall? No, he stayed pissed at the world. I have to follow through with taking care of me.<P>Guys -- pray for me this weekend. I'll be okay after a few days but it is going to sooo hard.

Janie,<P>You're in my prayers. As pathetic as this sounds, it's almost always worse for the betrayer, when it finally catches up to them.

Janie, you will be in my prayers. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you, but lean on the Lord when you run out of strength. And after that, come here and lean on us!

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Janie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Janie, there is a really good article at friends-lovers.com about male mid-life crisis. It gave me some insight about what is going on with my husband and it may help you. I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time right now. Try to look at the positives about starting your new life. I know that's hard to do now.

Janie,<P>{{{{{{sob - hugs - sob}}}}}}}<P>Wish I could help take the pain away

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Janie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Can never have too many hugs. You will get through this and you will be okay.

Janie,<BR>I am so sorry for what you are going through. You will be in my prayers. God has an answer, we just don't know what it is. Take care of yourself. Stand tall.<BR>God Bless

Janie,<BR>{{{{{HUG}}}}}<BR>I know how you feel... I moved out a week ago. I found that keeping myself busy by unpacking has helped me make it through the week..... but now I have a weekend and no unpacking to do. It's not easy to do, but we have to take care of ourselves. I will pray for you. <BR>Butterfly<P>------------------<BR>My favorite quote....<BR>"Hello, this is God. I will be handeling your problems today. I will not need your help, so sit back and have a good day."<BR>