I think that the big issue now for me is her lack of remorse and the just compensation...
SS1: Remorse and Just Compensation are two separate things.
Remorse in a maleRemorse varies, depending on if we're discussing an unfaithful wife or unfaithful husband. This really ties into a core concept of the program, as discussed in "His Needs, Her Needs": men and women have very different brains. Physically, topologically, male and female brains function in surprisingly different ways.
The basic difference here is that males are very capable of carrying on multiple romantic relationships simultaneously. Dr. Harley's described this as men having "rooms" in their mind: a room where work occurs, a room for a spouse, a room for children, a room for each lover, etc. I personally suspect we men do this well because although we have more neurons than women, we have vastly fewer connections between those neurons. We don't make associations as easily as women -- we are particularly weak at associating intuition and emotion (right brain) with our analytical and logical faculties due to a much smaller Corpus Calossum (sp?) between the two halves -- because we lack the wiring to do so as effectively as they do.
Because of this ease with carrying on multiple relationships, Dr. Harley usually insists that a man who has cheated must return "hat in hand" to his spouse, extremely remorseful and obviously contrite before the wife should be willing to engage in recovery. The bar is set high because it is so trivial for most men to carry on multiple romantic relationships with -- compared to women -- very little guilt. We're simply wired that way.
To sum up: an unfaithful husband typically must come back to the relationship extremely remorseful before recovery can occur. Otherwise, it is far too easy for them to "have their cake and eat it too", compartmentalizing continued abuse of their spouse with ongoing infidelity.
Remorse in a femaleWomen, on the other hand, typically find simultaneous multiple romantic relationships repugnant. There are exceptions, of course, but in MarriageBuilders we're playing the odds all the time, aiming to be part of the 20% of humanity which have "happy marriages" out there. Their brains are wired differently than a man's. They easily draw conclusions using their analytical faculties based on their emotions, and easily feel emotions based on something they have reasoned through. They can empathize more easily with their spouse, and due to their difficulty "compartmentalizing" their lives, will feel remorse simultaneously with pleasure during an affair.
Talk about conflicting emotions! Wow. Makes me glad I'm not a woman; I'd go NUTS trying to sort through experiencing more than one strong emotion at a time.
There's one more factor in a woman's brain: because she so easily draws conclusions based on her emotions, she recognizes the association between her husband's actions and how she feels about him. So if she's fallen out of love with him, her brain will intuitively recognize that
it's his fault she's not in love with him anymore.
This bit is important. When a man has an affair, he typically won't blame his wife (much) for it. He may complain to his affair partner about a lack of sex or recreational companionship, but he won't usually believe it's his wife's fault for what he's doing.
When women have affairs, they
overwhelmingly blame their husbands for the affair. Dr. Harley has statistics somewhere on the site about this specific "men blame themselves for their own affairs; women blame their husbands" statistic; I lack the time to find the citation right now. I hope I've explained above one potential rationale for why that is.
So at the start of a non-false recovery, you can usually count on a cheating husband to be very remorseful, but a cheating wife, not so much. This isn't 100% guaranteed. I've been corrected by a number of unfaithful wives on the board that they were EXTREMELY remorseful at the start of recovery. But in most cases, when you start recovery with an unfaithful wife, she's going to think the affair was her husband's fault.
Over time, this may change. But don't count on it. If you demand remorse, you are probably demanding divorce. And when many unfaithful wives do express remorse -- my wife falls into this category -- they express remorse for the
consequences of their actions. Not the actions themselves. The actions, they believe, are usually justified or were innocent of ill intent. The
consequences, however -- a broken-hearted spouse, despairing children, ruined friendships due to exposure, etc. -- cause deep remorse.
So if you're male, I strongly encourage you:
do not go chasing down the path of demanding remorse and apology. Women are proud creatures, and you're very unlikely to get a heartfelt apology unless she decides it's time. Over time, of course, this changes. But by that she is so in love with you again that she would gladly give you the abject apology you want? You won't want it anymore.
Just CompensationJust Compensation, on the other hand, is your right to demand. I cannot improve on Dr. Harley's explanation of the topic here:
http://www.marriagebuilders.com/graphic/mbi5042_qa.htmlI also know that she doesn�t want things to feel forced...
This is very, very typical at the start of recovery. She's not in love with you; she's in Conflict, if she's engaging at all. Your job is to keep meeting her needs, do not engage in any behavior that makes her miserable, and turn those actions that feel "forced" right now into habits that feel natural and nice!
I wonder whether my WW is settling or simply sticking around for the kids or financial reasons.
Every betrayed husband feels this way at the start. Unfortunately, voicing this question to your spouse is a Disrespectful Judgment -- telling her what she's thinking -- so you must refrain. Right here is the best place to express such worries.
Watch her actions. Falling in love is a very sudden thing. You keep making deposits with no tangible result until suddenly she crosses the Romantic Love Threshold and BOOM! You're in love again. She might wake up the next morning and smell your bad breath or watch you engage in an Annoying Habit and be back out of love again because her Love Bank balance fell below the threshold. Alcohol also reduces the "balance" required for romantic love. This is just how it goes in Recovery, and that's why we call it a "roller-coaster ride".
I thought I read that it is not uncommon for FWW�s to show no remorse. I�m really struggling with this even though my wife seems to at least be trying to move forward and reconnect.
See the remorse in her actions. If she's spending 15+ hours a week giving you her undivided attention, protecting you from her worst instincts, meeting your intimate emotional needs, and being radically honest with you? THAT is my redefinition of remorse to something we can live with.
Buck up, man. From this point on, it's a game to see who can score the most points in the Love Bank. You just can't see the score, and as long as the score stays high enough, you both win.