I am sorry for the bitterness that spewed from me in my early morning message. Yes I am hanging around, with hope I might can share with others and for support. I have good news. <BR>My h and I had a very bad day and night yesterday. Kid sick, work stressful, computer broke, he worked until midnight. It all was just too much. I clambed up because I wanted him to be with me and he had to work and when he came home I was half asleep. Etc, Etc. Well he spent an evening on the "net" and I was totally hurt. It totally blew the past 5 weeks of our rebuilding. Well I completely turned on him, wouldn't let him come near me. He wanted to fight it out, but he always turned in on me. I finally gave up and said ... I don't have the energy to defend my position on this. You always turn it on me and I simply can't shoulder anymore!<BR>Well low and behold I received an email from him this afternoon that brought me to my knees in tears. He apologized. For hurting me, said he never saw what he was doing to me until today, he said he hated me pulling away from him and making him leave this morning without a word or anything. He said he never valued our relationship until now and he didn't want to ever feel seperated from me like that again. <BR>I couldn't believe the emotion that poured from my husband! Of course I am a total sap and he said all but one thing that i needed him to say, but I think that will come later. He still receives emails from ow, says he doesn't reply, but I want him to tell her to stop, but he has never wanted to really hurt her feelings. Anyway, since my totally negative post this morning I wanted you all to know that i am okay! I hope and pray he is serious with this.<BR>Thank you all for listening and not judging!<BR>M<P>------------------<BR>Mater<P>

Mater, YEEEEAAAAHHHHH!!!!! Keep the faith, girl!!!<P>Roll Me Away

All Right!!! <P><BR>Lori

Mater:<P>Just a quick piece of advice (from seeing your other post).<P>Read up on "Lovebusters", and do your best to eliminate them. This will faciliate the healing process tremendously. Your husband is still suffering through withdrawal. There will be good times (like your above note), but there are going to be bad times too. The biggest difference that you can make is in keeping a loving, composed attitude through the BAD TIMES.<P>No demands. No disrespect. No angry outbursts. You can be honest with your husband and share all your feelings (even negative ones), but don't use the lovebusters.<P>He'll love you for the effort, in the end.