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So, I�ve been reading here daily for a few years and I�ve finally at my end. I�ve read his needs her needs and love busters but I�m done.

Our details: Married 17 years, DD15, DS12

My wife is a freeloader/renter�freeloader to me and renter to the kids. I�ve made all the mistakes by trying to fix her, hope, expectations. The last few years I�ve been cleaning up my side of the street but I think I�m done and don�t care anymore. I can honestly say, it�s true the opposite of love isn�t hate it�s indifference.

I�ve finally told my wife about a year ago, I don�t love her and I will divorce her�she didn�t care. I am a wallet and babysitter to her and that�s it. I�m looking to find a way to last another six years until the kids are gone.

I understand this site is all about repairing marriages but I think we are done and I need to shift to survival mode. I can go into more details if needed but I'm not sure it's really needed.

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6 years, heh?
Give me 6 'good reasons' why you should NOT try MB course?
After all, you have 6 years in which to try.
After that, you can actually say, "I gave it my best shot."

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A Word of Caution: Don't spring this on your spouse!

When my wife, Joyce, and I were first married, I bought a product from Honeywell that was intended for newlyweds, but I didn't tell her about it until it arrived in the mail. It was a surprise.

Well, Joyce was not at all pleased when I opened the box. She felt ambushed. We weren't having any problems, but I thought it certainly couldn't hurt. I was wrong.

If that's how Joyce reacted when we were having a terrific relationship, can you imagine how your spouse might react if you are having serious problems. Instead of being encouraged by your interest in your marriage, your spouse might think you are trying to control him or her, and totally reject the idea of taking the courses.

So before you order, be sure that you have your spouse's enthusiastic agreement. If you discuss it with each other, and decide to take these courses together, you will already be practicing one of my very important basic concepts, the Policy of Joint Agreement.

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I�ve finally told my wife about a year ago, I don�t love her and I will divorce her�she didn�t care.

If you told your W about your 6-year deadline, you gave her permission to continue her indifference. You need to instill some sense of urgency within her. Not 6 years. Maybe 8 months.

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Oh my word. notso. You are so me.

I was here for over 10 years before I finally pushed for MB counseling. It got my W and I on the same path and our marriage is finally much better than it was for the 10 (heck 23 ) years prior.

I too was going to wait it out another 10 years or so. I was so withdrawn about 5 months ago I didn't give a flying hoot what she did. I was raising my kids. Blech. Double Blech. It was a stupid stupid thing to do. I was so caught up in not wanting to drop a single cent on our marriage. Sometimes I can be a cheapskate.

I made it about a year doing this. I soon found that my indifference started to turn to internal anger and loathing. I didn�t want to break up our family but I couldn�t keep doing what I was doing. It was really starting to affect my health (mental and physical). It is depressing just thinking where I was.

You will soon find yourself there.

As I see it you have several options.

- MB counseling. This has some expense to it.
- Plan B on your own without counseling. But only if you�ve done a good Plan A. And only if you are unable to get your W on board with MB. This is risky and not a good option as you, just like me, haven�t given this MB thing a true chance.
- Plan D. This is extremely expensive.

Your current plan is NOT AN OPTION as it will lead to something extremely ugly and potentially dangerous.


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Originally Posted by notsotuff
I�ve finally told my wife about a year ago, I don�t love her and I will divorce her�she didn�t care. I am a wallet and babysitter to her and that�s it.

If you are a wallet and a babysitter to her you're wrong. She'll care once she has to live without your wallet and your services.

I suspect she sees it as an idle threat.

Call to set up an appt with one of the MB counselors for yourself first. They'll help you plan this thing right. They'll help you decide what your next step should be. Do this today. You need to get on with your life ... whatever that may be.


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Thanks everyone for replying,

I think maybe I should go into more detail. I�ll be 21 years military this summer and will retire in October. My wife is Japanese and both verbally and physically abusive. For several years she had me convinced I deserved the way she treated me and her life was so hard. Basically plan doormat!

She doesn�t know my timeline and I�ve already told her, when we move back to the States she can come with us or not. It�s up to her. I only keep her around as the kids have asked me to, they hate my cooking smile.

I�ve tried every angle I can come up with to sell her on the MB program but the answer is always � I don�t want an American marriage.� I�ve talked at length about emotional needs, what I need and how I could fulfill her needs but no, nothing.

In the last year we�ve had sex 8 times and only because I couldn�t take it anymore and initiated while she was half asleep. Now she doesn�t go to bed until 5 in the morning to avoid this from happening.

She refuses to show any affection and tells me I�m weird to want a hug or kiss.

As soon as we got married she refused to have any fun with me�she�ll invite me to drink with her friends or play slot machines together but I hate it.

She won�t talk to me unless it�s to berate me�when I get home from work if she says anything it�s usually �what are you doing home�

Please trust me when I say I�ve used the program but I�m not willing to give up time with my kids�EVER! If I could trust she wouldn�t stash my kids with her family�never seeing them again, I might be willing to be heavier handed with the boundaries. So like I said, I just need to find a way to continue stuffing my needs for the next few years.

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I just need to find a way to continue stuffing my needs for the next few years.

Good luck.

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Originally Posted by notsotuff
Please trust me when I say I�ve used the program but I�m not willing to give up time with my kids�

ok, nst, I can tell you haven't used the program at all because I am certain you have never followed the policy of undivided attention and you certainly don't follow the POJA when you have sex with her when she is asleep! [a sure fire ticket to a sexual aversion!] The program doesn't work unless you use it in its entirety. Each of the concepts are like a spoke in the wheel; you can't take a little of this and a dab of this and expect to have anything.

I would take MrAlias' suggestion and get coaching with the Harley's. Since your wife seems so aggressive, though, I think you should try Steve Harley. You can coach with Steve alone the first time and develop a plan of attack to get her on the phone the next time.


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both verbally and physically abusive.


In cases like this Dr. Harley recommends separation until the abuse ends. It doesn't matter if it's male or female who is the victim of the abuse.

I would definitely recommend you talk with Steve. He'll cut to the quick and give you immediate steps to take to help you with your situation.

The phone counseling is a very effective way of counseling.


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Originally Posted by MelodyLane
I would take MrAlias' suggestion and get coaching with the Harley's. Since your wife seems so aggressive, though, I think you should try Steve Harley. You can coach with Steve alone the first time and develop a plan of attack to get her on the phone the next time.

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I would definitely recommend you talk with Steve. He'll cut to the quick and give you immediate steps to take to help you with your situation. The phone counseling is a very effective way of counseling.

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I have counseled with Steve Harley - he is amazing, and completely different from anyone you've ever talked to before (I don't recommend marriage counselors lightly: have been to several that are terribly unhelpful!) If your wife is willing to talk to him, all the better. He's great at giving couples vision for a great marriage and good at getting buy-in from the reluctant spouse.

He's not a miracle-worker (e.g. my H refused to get on board after several months of counseling), but close! The clarity I received and the work I did on myself while counseling have left me with no regrets and complete confidence that I did everything I could to save my marriage.

Worth every penny.


"When you love someone, all your saved up wishes start coming out."
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Melody you are right, I did try to cherry pick for some time. I think maybe I�ve misrepresented my sex life. She�s already all over me, half sleeping, I�m just following though.

Pep hopefully you haven�t left me but I think you really made the most sense. It�s crazy to think I could go six more years in the current state�what was I thinking! Instead of complaining about her, I think I�ll use this to post what�s going on and look for alternate answers. It should help me avoid DJ�s and better implement the program.

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And the cycle continues....

Thursday night it all came to a head again. I asked her if we could talk after the kids go to bed and got no answer as usual. I told her I need to find a way to communicate with her that won�t make her angry and asked if we could start to fill out the LB checklist. I could tell she was already annoyed so, I said if you don�t want to that�s fine, we could just talk. She flew off the handle and started in on how she has such a hard life and it turned even worse. But not one word on things I can do better or annoying habits.

I said, I want to try to fix our marriage so we both can be happy and asked her if you don�t like my ideas what do you want to do?...no answer. Ok, do you have a plan on how we can keep our family going for the next several years?...no answer. Finally she asked do you have a plan? I do! I want to try MB, she said no! Ok plan B, if we can�t do something to repair our marriage after the kids are gone, I will divorce you. If we can't find a way to make our marriage something other than stressful and unfulfilling we will not be together forever.

She decided she is going to file for divorce this week and no point waiting years. She wants to move on and find a new husband. So, that�s the condensed version of events at my house�no real questions for anyone. I just needed to unload it somewhere.

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Sorry to hear she isn't willing to work at it.

I guess I'd say cut your losses and run. She's an abusive partner who doesn't want to work on the marriage and seems to have a different view of what marriage is supposed to be (I don't want an American marriage ... what does that mean?)

She wants to move on and find a new husband. Uff-da. Good luck to that guy.

Of course I'm recommending you leave without fully understanding why your M went south. While I would imagine it could be saved it sounds like she'd rather it wouldn't.

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That�s why I mentioned in my first post�freeloader/renter. She believes love should be natural and not willing to do anything for me. I think independent is an understatement in my case. It�s almost comical how sweet and far she goes out of her way for friends as she wants to keep the relationship. I�ve mentioned this many times but doesn�t register as �you�re my husband so, that�s different.�

I�ve even asked; you want to be just roommates? Ok, get a job and pay half the bills! Always with the deer in the headlights look�she�ll come back with, what for I�m married?

You�re right this is a waste of time. I need to cut my loses!

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She decided she is going to file for divorce this week and no point waiting years.

Odds are she will not do this.
And then what will you do?

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[/quote]Odds are she will not do this. And then what will you do?[/quote]

No idea. The only reason I've posted my story is to see if anyone had something I was missing. I've reached the end and can't force her to do counceling or even talk to me. We haven't said a word to each other since Thursday. Every couple of months we keep going through the same cycle. I'm beyond tired of it!

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No idea.

Why not?

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The only reason I've posted my story is to see if anyone had something I was missing.

You are missing the bigger picture.
Which is what?

You are at a crucible in life. A test. A trial. But, if you look at this with a different attitude, you have an opportunity. An opportunity you did not want, but an opportunity nonetheless. Everyone has these moments. You are looking at a 2-choice dilemma and you are frozen with indecision. You have 2 undesirable options to choose from. You offered a much more beneficial option #3 to your wife, and she has shut you down (again). It's what she does. She erects a roadblock and waits to see how you will deal with it. When you do not make a choice, she claims victory. It's a bit of a sick game. Still want to play notsotuff?

You have 2 undesirable options to choose from
1. A divorce and a broken home for your child.
2. A miserable, abusive, loveless marriage for 6 more years.

When I ask what you are going to do, you respond; "No idea."

If you think you are not making a choice, you'd be wrong. "No idea" is a choice.

Some people without integrity might chose to have an affair facing your situation.
Because you are not making that choice, I see you as a man of integrity.
But, you are a fool if you think you will not be vulnerable to another female who is willing to meet your needs during the next 6 miserable years.

Remember, not choosing has been your go-to-choice thus far.
When you do that, you are still playing her game.

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Originally Posted by Pepperband
You are at a crucible in life. A test. A trial. But, if you look at this with a different attitude, you have an opportunity. An opportunity you did not want, but an opportunity nonetheless. Everyone has these moments. You are looking at a 2-choice dilemma and you are frozen with indecision. You have 2 undesirable options to choose from. You offered a much more beneficial option #3 to your wife, and she has shut you down (again). It's what she does. She erects a roadblock and waits to see how you will deal with it. When you do not make a choice, she claims victory. It's a bit of a sick game. Still want to play notsotuff?

You have 2 undesirable options to choose from
1. A divorce and a broken home for your child.
2. A miserable, abusive, loveless marriage for 6 more years.

When I ask what you are going to do, you respond; "No idea."

If you think you are not making a choice, you'd be wrong. "No idea" is a choice.

Some people without integrity might chose to have an affair facing your situation.
Because you are not making that choice, I see you as a man of integrity.
But, you are a fool if you think you will not be vulnerable to another female who is willing to meet your needs during the next 6 miserable years.

Remember, not choosing has been your go-to-choice thus far.
When you do that, you are still playing her game.


[t/j]Pep, I needed that. [end t/j]

I've been writing lately, just for something to do with all the thoughts in my head, and to help me to focus. It's just my mental stream-of-consciousness blabbing, but in light of Pep's post I'm going to post something I wrote in the last week or so. It's sort of an unfinished thought, but take from it what you will:

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Not choosing is a choice.


�When you have to make a choice and don�t make it, that is in itself a choice.� -William James

�If you choose not to decide, you have still made a choice.� � RUSH, �Freewill�

�Life is the sum of all your choices.� � Albert Camus


Xiang Yu was a Chinese general in the third century B.C. In a battle for the city of Julu, Yu took his army across a river and once there, ordered them to sink their ships and destroy all but three days� worth of food rations, leaving his men with a choice: win the forthcoming battle against all odds, or die within three days, trapped between the walls of the city and the riverbank, with no hope of rescue.

Despite nearly overwhelming odds, Yu�s army won the battle of Julu.

Did Yu�s army win because knowing they had no other option, they threw everything they had into the battle? Would they still have won the battle if Yu had left them the option of retreat? Certainly it would be a comfort to know that if things got too bad, there would be a way out, a rescue; perhaps Yu knew that if his men realized they had an �out� it would make them too halfhearted about committing to a pitched battle.

In life, we often tell ourselves that it is good to leave our options open. People will do almost anything to avoid losing an option � closing the door on an option is experienced as a loss. We analyze situations endlessly and weigh the pros and cons�but sometimes in the interim of all that avoiding and weighing, our options � our doors � disappear.

It�s like supposing Robert Frost�s traveler was unable to make up his mind, and sat too long at the intersection of the two roads that diverged in the yellow wood, unable to commit to one path or the other. Perhaps he was waiting for someone else to make the decision for him. If he sits long enough, that may happen. Rains may come and flood one of the roads, leaving only one passable option. A construction crew may come along and close one of the roads, leaving no choice but to take the detour.

Frost writes that in choosing the road less travelled by, �that has made all the difference.� His choice, then, even one as singularly minor as choosing which road to travel, impacted his life in a profound way. If he had waited until someone else made the choice for him, then he could avoid taking responsibility for his choice. He could blame the construction crew for his travel delay.

Fear can keep us from choosing. Fear of making things worse, fear of being hurt, fear of change, fear of taking responsibility, fear of what others will think. So we don�t decide. We continue to do the same things that we have always done, with the same results, expecting that someone, somewhere, is going to sprinkle some pixie dust on us and make it all better. We wait for a construction crew to come along and close one of our roads, leaving us with no choice at all.

We are the only ones who can identify what we want and then do something about it. That applies to a decision as simple as what clothes to wear or what to eat for breakfast on any given day or as complex as what to do with our lives.


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When my wife and I began our reconcilliation process, I told her that something had to die. It was either the affair, our marriage or me. If the affair didn't die, the marriage would. If the affair died, then I told her the things that would kill the marriage (additional contact with POSOM, other affairs, etc). Outside of those things that would kill my marriage, I would fight to the death to save it.

The others are right, there will be a decision made. It will be either yours or hers. MB Plan B sounds like a good option for you. Separation with no contact to let her see what divorce would look like. That means she has to provide for herself and the kids while they are with her and deal with the loss of her best friend/husband without being able to contact him except through an intermediary. That may (or may not) cause her to come out of her foggy attitude and see the world like it will be as a single mom.

Remember though, reconcilliation can happen even during or after divorce. If you leave that door open to her, she may (or may not) use it. You can only control what you do. Not what she does. For me, that was the revelation that began to change me and my decisions.


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You know it�s funny�I just had a similar conversation with my daughter a few weeks ago about some high school antics. We ended the talk with Winston Churchill �You have enemies GOOD! That means you chose a side and stood for something�

I think maybe I�m painting my life in a bad light which isn�t fair to her so instead of complaining about her I think I would get more benefit from posing questions of what I�m doing. Just to clarify the �American marriage� she means in comparison to American romance movies and how lots of folks like to portray their life all hugs and kisses. Not bills, kids, and schedules�life�I�ve never said that�s what I want! I want a life that�s not child centered and needs are met. Anyway, you were right I don�t think she�ll file this week as its Thursday night and we�re at 7 days of not talking. I really don�t care and kind of enjoy the peace.

I�ve already talked to the kids about divorce and what that means will happen. But like me I know my wife will never leave the kids so I�ve been weighing a third option. TOTAL WAR! If she thinks her life is bad now soon she�ll be off the bank accounts, credit card canceled, and her car sold! I�m also thinking of having a sit down with her parents to discuss our future. That will be a huge bomb! I guess that means I�m going to stay in a loveless marriage for a few more years and divorce when it�s convenient to me. As cold as that sounds, I still want to use the MB principals but some I won�t be able to use like UA or having any of my needs met.

I know I�m very ripe to cheat on my wife and have put boundaries in place several years ago after my wife decided sex was for making babies. My father had an affair from the time I was about 2 until my senior year of high school and affairage soon after. It was so funny when they divorced and he got her classic car and half the home equity. So, I don�t go to places where females would hang out. I don�t talk about my marriage to anyone. I stay busy working 12+ hours a day and the kids plan things for us to do on weekends. I�m not foolish enough to say it can�t happen to me. I�m saying I�m a bit of a tactician and Art of War is one of my favorite books.

I know this is a plan to fail. I feel I don�t have any options left�thanks

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