This is my story,<P>I have been married for 2 1/2 years. During the first few months of my marriage my husband cheated on me on numerous occasions. I went through so many emotions, I am shocked I even lived through them. Well, I would confront him and he would deny it. I would take him back and the cycle just goes on and on....I have finally come to realize that I am not going to sit at home with the kids crying my head off anymore. I did have an extramarital affair, but that didn't make me feel any better because he was married also, and it hurt my feelings everytime he put his wife before me. Crazy thinking I know. But, it didn't end there. I started seeing a married woman. Then we did the 3 some thing with her husband. Now that turned into a disaster because he started liking me more than his wife. And she got jelous both ways. Jelous that her husband wanted me and jelous because she didn't want to share me with him anymore. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel very crazy right about now. I know I am looking for someone to love me, but why did I feel I had to put myself into such extreme situations?

Latrice:<P>You've learned that extramaritial affairs don't help---that's a good lesson. So heed it and stop.<P>The next step I would advise you on would be to seek professional marriage counseling. Whether or not your husband will go, you should do this for yourself. Find someone pro-marriage; preferrably someone with a background in the Marriagebuilder's methodology. If you're comfortable doing phone counseling, Steve Harley is a terrific counselor (I used him for a year or so).<P>Get out of all your extramarital relationships immediately. And start the counseling, for your own sake.