Calla, I've read your posts today on your situation. I'm sorry for your pain. I must say I find it interesting and quite human that our emotions and feelings turn with different events in our lives. I posted the other day and you responded by saying that I seemed to be looking for an out. Again. The question - "When is it time to go seperate ways is NOT an easy question to answer. There IS so much emotion and "past" to consider. I have been married 17 years to someone who is not a whole person. But becuase of my committment to my marriage vows I have stayed with it. Through good times and bad. As I look back and have talked with my counselor I find that I have sacraficed A LOT to stay here and he has sacrificed not much. I have a lot more invested than he. After his A ended we did seek counseling (he was willing). It helped some, but H is so inconsistent with his follow-through that it's hard to continue love and trust. It takes two to make it work. When it's just one consistently that's not right. Just when I think it's getting better and it's going to be real again, I get hit with the same old self-serving H. I believe he loves me, but it's not a fulfilling brand of love. Are we just supposed to stay and find our fullfillment in other ways and ignore the BIG HOLE.I don't know what I'm trying to say, except that it is very complicated, and I'm not happy. I don't think relationships are supposed to be this way. <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by calla30:<BR><B>LL,<BR>Ask yourself this one thing: can you picture your life, your world, without him in it? Can you picture yourself happy and engaged in your own goals, without him by your side?<P>If you can see it..if you can visualize it...if that thought brings you peace, and not sadness...then maybe it is time to "lay down the fight".<P>Just my way of looking at it...<P>calla</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>