Well, dont we have similar lives. LOL. We too have 3 kids I am not working at the moment because we are getting ready for a move again due to H's job. But it is a positive one. I am so happy most days, and i am lucky H calls me EVERYMORNING to say i love you so i can start off our day right and he is the last voice i hear at night every night ( albeit on the phone) It workls for us, I will not see him for 2 more months and 10 days. I am really good with it, i am surprised by the fact that i have let the anger and meaness about the A just fade away .But I have. H and I are totally in such a great place in our marriage now, and i fell so happy. <BR> Just TODAY, when i woke up i felt BLAH like OK i want him home and this really sucks, but then i talked tohim and i felt better. So much better in fact i am taking the kids to the LAKE and having supper there. I do get excited when i do something with all 3 kids that I thought i could only DO with H in tow as well. High five to me lol talk to you soon Z.<BR>Maine<P>------------------<BR>In even the darkest of places there is a capacity to love

Sounds like you did it. You got beyond today's funk.<P>You, after reading your post I'm feeling a little guilty for letting myself get down. At least I have my H every weekend. This weekend we are childless so we are planning a weekend long date... just like when we were single. And the last weekend of the month we are planning a long weekend in Santa Fe to celebrate our first wedding anniversay.<P>And you reminded me too that though the children can be hard to handle by myself at times, they are also my salvation when he is gone. Kinda like built in buddies (well not quite buddies but you know what I mean).<P>Is there any way you could go visit your husband while he is on this extended work assignment? Or maybe you two can meet half way? <P>Enjoy the lake today<P>Z<BR><P>------------------<BR>He loves not who does not show love.<BR>----William Shakespeare

hey Z,<BR> Oh i am I am going to see him ALONE no kids ( first time in 10 years) in august to see him graduate and have some alone time. We are BOTH so looking forward to it. ANd yes forthe most part I am out of the funk. Sometimes i have to just vent and send. And if i have a bad mood for anyreason, i write it down and mailit to H. So he sees on a daily basis what i go through, being the solo parent and allthe stress i am under some days. We write every day, that helps. And these boards seem to let me vent too. <BR> And about kids they are a blessing and make the weeks fly by for my. Summer VACA starts soon and i will have a housefull again and spend days doing things so that will help. All i want is to be KISSED by H so bad but i am patient. This time is a great growth time for us, and it gave us the chance to decide that we really are true souls mates for oneanother. He does not go out, and is always in his room too, so the trust is building up everyday. I am so freaking happy. more so than before the A. How odd is that?? you have a great day/<BR>maine<P>------------------<BR>In even the darkest of places there is a capacity to love