This was posted on my thread my Heart hurts but i guess it died out<BR>THE LATEST:<BR>Last night i was over my mothers house helping her do some graphics on her computer for her business. H called 2 times in a 15 minute period... the second time he says.. why you answerind the phone are you waiting for a call?.... im like Huh?<BR>then i logged my mothers puter on to get somestuff from her web page and it was busy when H tried to call. his comment on this was do you go to your mothers to go online?.......insinuating that i was meeting someone online.<BR>so i came home and asked what al lthat crap was about. i also asked him why he would think i would cheat on him.... he said because i deserve it..... i also told him that if i was gonna go and screw around that last thing i would be doing would be working on the marraige<BR>anyhow im not a vengeful person and that last thing i would do to "get back" at H would be go out and have an affair.<BR>i am very upset that my H think i would belittle myself and our marriage this way...............i think i handled this rather well and once again i wait for H to spend some time with me..........damn his computer to he11 ........ he didnt log off til about 4 this morning ...... and then tries to wake me up for sex?...WHAT ???!!!! you have got to be kidding??!!...... his puter is in the bedroom and i had to listen to click clack all night not to mention his voice as he chatted with others......... I am sick with a cold sleep is hard to come by right now. I cant just wake up whenever he wants to have sex?.......i have to get up at 7 with the baby too...... Im sure i made him mad by telling him to let me sleep ..... but i think H is unreasonable in that respect.........let me mention that I was available from 8 to 11 watching TV in the bedroom. why couldnt he ask me then?<BR>Also i told H that it hurts me the way he lashes out at me....... i told him that it mostly hurts bcause i know he would never treat her (OW) the way hes treating me. He didnt have a reply to that just an i'm sorry. i didnt vent on him i just stated how i felt i am not sure if this a LB or not.<BR>however overall today seems to be an Ok day for us.... not that we have seen much of eachther first he was gone with my uncle and now he is in a Mech tornement (sp?) <BR>however i did mention that i owuld like some quality time later to talk or whatever and he said OK.........lets see if he remembers. prolly not but what i can do without him lashing out if i remind him later?<P><BR>