Sobs tear at my heart,<BR>Fat, wet tears drop from above;<BR>I didn't cry when I was young<BR>when my mom left my dad,<BR>when my dad moved away,<BR>when stepdad 1 died,<BR>when stepdad 2 was so cruel.<P>I kept it all inside <BR>filling me with hatred that<BR>I used to keep myself alone from you<BR>when I really needed you,<BR>when I really loved you,<BR>when I was frustrated with you, <BR>when I was sad for you.<P>The tears pour down now<BR>My face and neck are wet<BR>my shirt speckled with spots.<BR>When you leave, I will hurt.<BR>When you leave, I will cry.<BR>When you leave, I will move on.<BR>When you leave, I will survive<P>Even if I don't want to<BR>when you leave.<P>

No words of advice...<BR>just I'm sorry and you do not deserve this at all. (((((((((Cali)))))))))))

I remember new love<BR>passionate kisses,<BR>midnight talks,<BR>shivery caresses.<P>I remember newlywed love<BR>shared chocolate kisses,<BR>shared midnight pizzas,<BR>shimmery touches.<P>I remember pregnant love<BR>satisfied kisses,<BR>satisfied cravings,<BR>massaging hands.<P>I remember grieving love,<BR>healing kisses,<BR>whispering sorrows,<BR>holding each other.<P>I remember married love<BR>comfortable kisses,<BR>comfortable silences,<BR>holding hands.<P>I remember we've had it all.<BR>Why can't you?<BR>

Cali, He remembers,he just can't admit it right now. We (BSs) know exactly how you feel. It's great to write all those feelings down, a catharsis of sorts, but keep those thoughts to yourself so as not to burden H with anymore guilt. Guilt can come back to bite you and make it impossible for H to move past his mistake and come back to what is right. Do not dwell there in the past. It serves you no purpose right at the moment,except to sadden you and make it harder to do what you need to do. There isn't a single good answer to that question WHY?

No! time to question, (what's real)<BR>instead, how pitiful...<BR>No! time to focus, (on the pain)<BR>instead, congealing disdain...<BR>No! time to wonder, (what am I doing?)<BR>instead, i just keep hurting... (you)<BR>No time... it seems.<BR>Falling down that hole again.<BR>Time to lie again. (that)<BR>Fuels the fire that burns me (sin)<BR>falling back down agian<BR>trying to see it another way.<BR>there’s that uncertainty again.<BR>someone / heaven help me. (to pray)<BR>learning to pray...<P>Aeon Blue

That was beautiful.<P>You're right. We will both survive.

sometimes...<BR>it seems nothing is worth saving<BR>hope is lost and forgotten.<BR>with all the things he/she (said)<BR>trite and ugly words she/he bled<P>(i) can't watch you slip away<P>(you) shine in a world of darkness<BR>(you) matter when everything is meaningless<BR>(you) help by giving strength to others even when you're weakest<P>hoping someone will see<BR>(through these words)<BR>but it's too late for me<BR>...(they say)<BR>my story is contrary from yours<BR>...(they conclude)<BR>don't let that fool you, and elude.<P>every story is different, unique in ways<BR>it's the cover and binding of the book thats often the same<BR>you will come to find<BR>we are all one mind<BR>capable of all thats<BR>imagined and all thats <BR>concievable<BR>(i) won't let you fall apart today<BR>it's a new day...<P>keep trying<BR>and building...<BR>hoping <BR>and dreaming...<BR>waking<BR>and sleeping...<BR>living<BR>and breathing...<BR>praying<BR>and helping...<P>(it's something i have to do)<BR>i won't let you fall apart<BR>i won't let you fall apart<BR>(i was there, too)<P>it's something i want to do as:<P>Aeon Blue<P>*i "Aeon Blue"<BR>*you "one million voices of strength, (us at mb.com)"<p>[This message has been edited by Aeon Blue (edited June 25, 2001).]

interestingly to find <BR>something that speaks <BR>from deep beneath Cali.<P>between your hidden words<BR>the calm beneath the storm appears<P>reflected on your words awhile<BR>your poetry is great. (so smile)<P>Aeon Blue

Cali:<P>As they say in German: Gott mitt uns (God with you).<P>It is said that "that which doesn't destroy you makes you stronger." You have not been destroyed, and in the end, this shall make you stronger. Feeble words in the midst of your current pain, I know.<P>Pain in life is the fire in the forge that molds our soul: we can let it melt us away to nothing, or we can rebound, forged into a finer metal for having withstood the pounding and the heat.<P>Godspeed and our prayers with you,<BR>STL

StrongerinCali:<P>You still have faith after all you have gone through. I didn't know, but your poem helped me a little.<P>I am humbled by your strength, saddened beyond words that the person you chose to help you betrayed you. And amazed that he cannot see what a treasure he has in you.<P>I think that is what I have found here and through this experience, is that with all the flaws we humans have loyalty and trust are more important than anything else. We think that love is above all, but we forget that St. Paul used the Greek word agape, which means "charity" in English, trust, loyalty, love, without expecting return. It is the kind of love so many here show, and their WS are truly insane to pass it by. Yours especially.<P>Stronger, take care. When he is gone, you will mourn. But I know you will mourn like one who will go on, and find her new way. God's peace to you.<P>Ishy

StrongerinCali:<P>You still have faith after all you have gone through. I didn't know, but your poem helped me a little.<P>I am humbled by your strength, saddened beyond words that the person you chose to help you betrayed you. And amazed that he cannot see what a treasure he has in you.<P>I think that is what I have found here and through this experience, is that with all the flaws we humans have loyalty and trust are more important than anything else. We think that love is above all, but we forget that St. Paul used the Greek word agape, which means "charity" in English, trust, loyalty, love, without expecting return. It is the kind of love so many here show, and their WS are truly insane to pass it by. Yours especially.<P>Stronger, take care. When he is gone, you will mourn. But I know you will mourn like one who will go on, and find her new way. God's peace to you.<P>Ishy

I look into eyes <BR>I used to recognize,<BR>Eyes that burn,<BR>Eyes that blame.<P>I hear a voice<BR>I used to know,<BR>a voice that hurts,<BR>a voice that scorns.<P>I feel a touch<BR>I still crave,<BR>a touch that tempts,<BR>a touch that heals.<P>I feel a love<BR>I still desire,<BR>a love that hurts,<BR>a love forever.<P>

humbled and helpless<BR>i'm learning to pray<BR>praying for visions<BR>to show me the way<BR>show me the way to forgive you<BR>allow me to let it go<BR>allow me to be forgiven<BR>show me the way to let go<BR>show me the way to forgive you<BR>allow me to let it go<BR>allow me to be forgiven<BR>show me the way to let go<BR>illuminate me<BR>illuminate me<BR>i'm just praying for you to show me where i'm to begin<BR>hoping to <BR>reconnect.<BR>hoping to <BR>reconnect..<BR>hoping to <BR>reconnect...<P>Aeon Blue<p>[This message has been edited by Aeon Blue (edited June 25, 2001).]

2 women luv you<BR>needing u<BR>touching u<BR>2 women luv you<BR>which woman is witch?<BR>which woman is tru?<BR>2 women wanting u<BR>pulling at u<BR>pushing at u<BR>2 women wanting u<BR>which luv is real?<BR>which luv is tru?<BR>2 women luv u<BR>2 women wanting u<BR>will you discover which is tru?

lies, all lies<BR>lies of omission<BR>deliberate lies<BR>stinging, painful lies<P>lies, his lies<BR>vows are lies<BR>life is lies<BR>love is lies<P>lies, my lies<BR>life is a lie<BR>love is a lie<BR>you are a lie<P>lies, all lies<BR>lies of omission<BR>deliberate lies<BR>stinging, painful lies

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone <BR>Inside sleeping, my heart beating <P>You know that you tried to hide it<BR>Shouldn't you have said what you meant?<P>YOU LIED!<P>Aeon Blue

baby<BR>she whispers sweetly<BR>a siren song<BR>beckoning<P>lover<BR>she tempts completely<BR>sending<BR>a marriage <BR>to the rocks<P>I want to<BR>shroud you with me<BR>so you can't see<BR>her<P>You need to<BR>be free from her<BR>(or me)<BR>to find you<P>On a rock I stand<BR>a lighthouse<BR>guiding you<BR>back home<BR>away<BR>from the <BR>siren song

Cali says: <BR>-------<BR>(lover)<BR>she tempts completely<BR>sending<BR>a marriage <BR>to the rocks<BR>-------<P>(I) am just a worthless liar. <BR>I am just an imbecile. <BR>I will only complicate you. <BR>Trust in me and fall as well. <P>I will find a center in you. <BR>I will chew it up and leave. <BR>I will work to elevate you <BR>just enough to bring you down. <BR>Trust me.<P>I want what I want.<P>Aeon Blue<P>*I "(lover) from cali's story"<p>[This message has been edited by Aeon Blue (edited June 25, 2001).]

--snip--<P>(I) am just a worthless liar. <BR>I am just an imbecile. <BR>I will only complicate you. <BR>Trust in me and fall as well. <P>I will find a center in you. <BR>I will chew it up and leave. <BR>I will work to elevate you <BR>just enough to bring you down. <BR>Trust me.<P>I want what I want.<P>Aeon Blue<P>--unsnip--<P>That's awfully beautiful literature there, however I think you should give credit where credit is due.<P>Lets hope this forum parses my URL correctly <BR> <A HREF="http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/SongUnid/7A15DFBD76361F9F48256A57002BCF14" TARGET=_blank>http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/SongUnid/7A15DFBD76361F9F48256A57002BCF14</A> <P>Single4<P><p>[This message has been edited by Single4Evr (edited June 25, 2001).]

I was wondering if anyone else noticed. Happens to be my favorite band. <P>AB, "Sober" now? <P><A HREF="http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/SongUnid/7A15DFBD76361F9F48256A57002BCF14" TARGET=_blank>http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/SongUnid/7A15DFBD76361F9F48256A57002BCF14</A> <P><p>[This message has been edited by trace (edited June 26, 2001).]