I'm torn.. the depression which I hide so very well has suddenly leaked out through the anguish I feel for everyone who has been affected by this sensless act of terrorism.<P>Being apart from my wife and her being 279 miles north of me.. is really hard. I know I'm not the only one whose going through this.. what are you doing to not worry.. even though the likelihood that nothing is going to where she lives.. I'm still driving myself crazy.<P>Is anyone else going through this... having the two emotions mix?<P>------------------<BR>Semper Fi,<P><B>Husband2You</B><BR>«¤»¥«¤»§«¤»¥«¤»§«¤»¥«¤»§«¤»¥«¤»§«¤»¥«¤»§«¤»¥«¤»<BR><I>···In the valley of the blind the one eye'd man is King···</I><P>· E-mail: <B> husband2you@petroleum.org </B> · ICQ: <B><A HREF="http://wwp.icq.com/1206499" TARGET=_blank>1206499</A></B> · Formerly: <B>E m p t y</B> ·

I hate to jump on the depression band-wagon... I'm there too... but fighting my way out of it... times like these especially cause us to wanna be close to our loved ones... makes us want to shake them and say "don't you see all the evil and terror in the world - and we don't even have each other to lean on right now. I want to be here for you in these times, and you for me.".....<P>we have to hold on to the fact that God is in control, and all of this will work out to His glory and purpose. We need to love, appreciate, and lean on the family and friends that are around us...<P>"God heals the brokenhearted,<BR>and binds up their wounds.<BR>He determines the number of the stars;<BR>he gives to all of them their names.<BR>Great is our Lord, and abundant in power;<BR>his understanding is beyond measure."<P>Psalm 147:3-5<P>just my thoughts of where I am... <BR><P>------------------<BR>Faith1<P>"Then Jesus answered, 'Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.'"<BR>Matt 15:28

I thought about all of you...My H is 'home' for all it is worth...but at least I can touch him...kiss him...hug him...tell him how much I love him...<P>I felt sad for you all...<P>My hugs and prayers are with you.<P>Cali

Yeah, Tuesday my mom said something like, "This will put<BR>everyone under stress. You should be careful to watch your<BR>stress levels."<P>She doesn't know that I was already under the most stress I have ever had in my life!<P>And I am just too tired to deal with ANYTHING. So I muddle through and don't accomplish enough at work, and I am careful not to do LB and not to ask any question I don't want to know the answer to!<P>And then I feel guilty that my personal problems make me less caring about the disasters others are facing. WS did not understand why I wanted to hug S and kids on Tues.!! And I feel guilty about not having problems that I read about here. ( I just have a WS who is hiding things, but as far as I know has not lied to a direct question. When asked about giving up OP on trial basis, WS said it would be impossible. This is hard to live with, but at least WS didn't lie.)<P>

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Bgentle:<BR><B>I am just too tired to deal with ANYTHING. So I muddle through and don't accomplish enough at work</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>This is where I am, too, Bgentle. I'm just tired...and Tuesday's events touched us all deep within. Being a teacher, I must put on a brave face so I won't frighten my students, but I feel anything BUT brave. Especially since my WH DID NOT call, or seems NOT to care if I'm feeling low, or afraid, or sad or ANYTHING related to this disaster.<P>Compounding that stress, between H's ongoing A and attacks on Tuesday (AND found out Tuesday that one of my student's from last year saw his house burn down this last week-end, and youngest sister is very critical from injuries), NOW there's a Tropical Storm (might be a minimal hurricane by the time it hits here) coming directly at us!!! I'll be here, all alone to deal with the house with 16 windows and an extra-large plate glass window I can't board up, 6 dogs in the back yard, I guess I COULD build pens in the garage for them, pick up the stuff in the yard, and watch and hope the big oak tree in the back yard doesn't fall across the roof, or crash into the sliding glass door in family room......<P>Oh, yeah, I'm planning on a GREAT week-end. Maybe I'll just walk away too.....and leave it all behind, like HE did.<P>Want more stress? I've got a BUCKET LOAD heading in over here, and all I want to do is crawl up into my bed and cry my eyes out. I don't know how much more the Lord expects me to take. Yeah, I've changed.....but you know what????? I'M ABOUT READY TO THROW IN THE TOWEL, AND TURN BACK INTO THE SCREAMING, CUSSING SHREW I WAS....AT LEAST <B> THAT </B> PERSON FELT LIKE THEY WERE IN CHARGE OF THEIR LIFE.<P>Lupo

H2Y,<P>I have been crying since Tuesday. Some is for the families, some for what our relationship is going thru. It's driving me crazy. <BR>It's pretty exhausting huh! Stay strong and keep your head up. Sherry

I was sad yesterday. Now I'm just tired.<P>I want to go home. My 8 yo D said she only gave me enough hugs for a week away -- it's been several days longer.<P>I have a flight out tomorrow. I hope the tropical storm leaves the southeast alone for another day. I hope getting on the plane doesn't dredge anything up.<P>Then I've got to do this all again in another 2 weeks.<BR>Sigh.<P>Jeffers