Ok, just a couple of points. No kids, was hoping to start a couple of months ago. The first week after I figured it out, that's all I could talk about with her. When we weren't talking, we were giving the tiptoe silent treatment to each other. Neither of us was sleeping, though I was on sedatives ASAP. And I WAS incredibly needy...that's all she could tell her friends about me until the REAL truth came out (yeah, that would be my bad in a fit of anger...big LB).<P>I think now, that if she could handle being in the house, I could as well. I actually WANT to talk to her about other things. Plus it'd make it just that more inconvenient for them to be together....I've caught them together quite a few times even after she promised she wouldn't have contact (fingers crossed, I guess- shoulda said "NO CROSSIES!").<BR>Anyway, she knows that I'm checking up on her, just maybe not quite how much. I might have caught her again tonight, we'll see if she was smart enough to actually GO to the store after her girlfriend told me that's where she is....we'll see Thursday as we're doing bills that night.<P>Anyway, I'm rambling. I reviewed the EA checklist and for the last year.....I've provided NOTHING (except money)! I've been in such a depressive state (clinically speaking) and just plain shut myself off....so as a result I'm >>>REALLY<<< threatened by the OM - or rather the relationship (even though he's 19- she's 30, she was raised deeply Christian, and statistics are against it working, and all that). I truly believe that she LOVES him and not me (obviously). But I also believe that given some separation from HIM, and some proximity to ME, I could bewitch her again (just like in college).<P>In the mean time, I'm driving myself absolutely nuts. I AM working on me, but anytime I'm not TOTALLY occupied, there I go in a jealous panic. Then even when I happen to try to contact her innocently, FREAK OUT AND GO SPYING! CRIPES! Ya know, if she was here, maybe we could revisit the ground rules that we'd established in the first week...she accepted the fact that I'd need to know when, where, with whom she was, then again maybe not after all my crap the last couple of weeks.<P>MAN, she's smarter than this! She says she thinks of me as a friend, but with friends like this.....<P>By the way, for any of you teachers out there (I noticed we seem to have quite a few). Wouldn't this violate your ETHICAL CONDUCT clause (provided your district has one)...I mean this is a 19 year old former student and it's an EMA....not much more unethical than that (maybe throw in some rabbits or something).<P>Ok, I've vented enough for now. I look forward to your further comments.<P>Kev