Well, H came over on Tuesday and picked up some additional furniture and clothes....
When I went upstairs, he worked on both computers and removed the fantasy football shortcuts on my business computer as well as our home computer.... see, he is trying to keep me from monitoring his activity. well, as you know I already have the monitoring software installed on the home computer that he will probably take with him today and as far as my computer goes.....I still have it hooked up....he just doesn't know where to go to disconnect me completely....I have already got it reinstalled.....anyway I just wanted to post my responses to all the MB members who posted to my early thread....I appreciate all the responses and support....
Thanks Dianne<p>Thanks to all of you for your responses...I haven't been on much the last day or so......
Sprayerguy: Thanks for your response..I know I should give him the benefit of the doubt but usually "if it looks like a rabbit and acts like a rabbit" it's a rabbit.....and we have 5 couches and had already agreed to which one he would take and so on......that's why I felt that was BS.....her apartment was all cosy and setup for an afternoon of togetherness I am sure.....I appreciate your words of encouragement....I do think we had one of the worse days of our lives together......
buffy: when I read your response, it hit me like a ton of bricks!!! You are dead on right and yes, it is up to me....what and how much can I take....I am learning real quick in this game that what you say you will do and what you do are usually two different things (last week, I said, if any contact....No if ands or buts....I will file for divorce immediately) well, I haven't and I guess I need to eat crow.....I am still hanging on and hoping for the best....what you said was crystal clear to me and I thank you for your insight and response...I appreciate everyone here so much....the support and advice, we can't put a price on because we all are at different stages sharing our journeys together and thank God for this site.....I thank you again.....
Sad Sally and runningonfaith: You guys are so right and I know I can't keep beating myself up like I do.....I am learning such a hard lession....grace....I have had the hardest time showing my H grace....maybe that is my lession in this step.....learning to show him love/patience/grace instead of anger when I catch him in these situations....maybe that's what God wants me to learn so later when we are together, I will be able to handle whatever comes our way....thank you both so much!
Orchird: You are sooooo right!! One day I sorta see traces of my real H not the alien H and then BOOM the alien is there.....I am learning to calm down a little before I start LBing real bad...doing a little better.....Thanks for your response...I always listen close to what you say....thank you my friend....
sadprincess: You are right...I will work on myself and take care of my wonderful boys.
Thank you sadprincess.
Lor(LOR): Your insight is so helpful....You give me hope Lor and now that between your response and buffy's, I see that I have to realize what the truth is that he is still probably involved with her and has not stopped anything....like buffy said....the apartment is probably just his way of getting away from me and not having me know where he is so he can see more of OW and they can do their thing.....makes me sick.......Just wanted to say thank you again....appreciate your help
Dianne
