Hi...I am posting with a new username...<p>I was disturbed last week when H went looking for my posts...<p>I am not sure who still 'lurks,' OW or OWH or both...<p>so...here's my new name...<p>C A L I<p>[ November 01, 2001: Message edited by: Calypso ]</p>

LMAO! Good choice .... Caly?!?!?!?!<p>[ November 01, 2001: Message edited by: Resilient ]</p>

Hi Cali, I justed answered a reply on my post with your new name, I wasn't sure if that was you. glad you let us know. Nice Name. love Sally

Yep...it's me...<p>I kept trying to think of a new name...finally took out the dictionary and it 'leapt' out to me!<p> [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Much better than Princess...dontcha think?<p>C A L I

Dear C,<p>I like the name. <p>Take Care,
L.

OMG .... don't even go there (Princess GAG!)<p>AT least you didn't chose Caliber, or Calibrate, or Calico, or Caliph (supreme ruler), or Calisthenics, or Calyx (the outer whorl of protective leaves of a flower). [I have no clue what a "whorl" is, do you? lol]<p>But who knows ... there's always next time. <p>Jo<p>p.s. I really do like the new name, M. [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img]<p>[ November 01, 2001: Message edited by: Resilient ]</p>

I like you new name.<p>
SLH

Hi [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Disturbed?<p>Avoiding and new names... ???<p>You brought him here. I am a bit confused.<p>Disturbed how? Everything ok?<p>NY

New name again? You've got a regular industry going here. Hope things are going o.k. I always assume if someone's not here, then good things are happenin'.<p>I wish my W would come read my stuff. She was reading in the beginning (I told her to!) but she hasn't kept up. I think she figured since everything got fixed there was no need... sigh.<p>Isn't whorl like, "I'm going to take that new OP out for a whorl."
Or, I guess it would be, "I'm going to take that new OP out for a Calyx." YUCK!!!
(that was just to crack Jo up [img]images/icons/tongue.gif" border="0[/img] )<p>Jeffers

I'm serious Jeffers, what the HECK is a Whorl?<p>Ohhhhhh, wait .... Like "Whorl a chunk"?<p>Jo

A spiral.<p>See, I knew that. It was a test, right?<p>Or, maybe I went to askjeeves.<p>Jeffers<p>Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time...

Good job! Is Jeeves your butler? Smart dude.<p>I like your sig line alot, Jeffers.<p>Jo

Okay...I'll try this the third time [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] ...cyberspace ate one and H came home so I 'lost' the second one...<p>Glad you like name...JustPlainCali was in response to the OW and OWH invasion in July and August...I am told OWH may still lurk...I was never 'happy' with the name...but it was an in-your-face reaction to OW and my H who didn't like me posting their story here.<p>NY...I was 'disturbed' because H does not like me posting here...it is an LB to him...last week he was specifically looking to see how many times I posted and the titles...I HAVE NEVER BEEN "AFRAID" OF HIM...HE WOULD NOT HURT ME...but I need somewhere to post my thoughts and learn until I can find a suitable counselor...and besides I like you all and would miss you...<p>Resilient...I was also going to tell you that a whorl was the 'twist' of flower petals...but Jeffers beat me [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] ...and Jeffers...I didn't need "Ask Jeeves!" [img]images/icons/rolleyes.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Jeffers as to why my posting has been sparse...(no new posts in almost a week!)is that H and I are in stalemate. I asked him to leave...he refused citing financial hardship...even told me I should be the one to leave when I explained how painful it was for me...how I would need time to get over him...that if we lived together until we were 'financially' stable and I was in a house, I would get lulled into 'safety' eventually...I would 'convince' myself things were okay...then I could just envision it...we move into a house and H moves into a condo...BAM! I didn't like the vision.<p>I don't know what to do. Do I hang on...like it says in the mid-life crisis books...and 'pray' for Divine intervention...<p>What do I pray for?<p>Sometimes I even start to doubt that I should 'wait' for H...he's a terrific dad...but he's been a lousy husband...I now wonder if his holding back all these years DOES mean he didn't love me...there is so much doubt now coupled with my fear...<p>So I chose Calypso...an earthy, Caribbean sound...songs of life....<p>D A Y Oh...everyone...<p>C A L I

Hi Calypso,<p>Gotta tell you this......H also didn't like me posting here. Thought I made his life an open book and that everyone would recognize him walking down the street of Anywhere USA!!!!<p>Well, he is not that famous and no you wouldn't recognize him. Now if I was married to George Clooney (oh right he is not marriage material), I am sure many would recognize him. Anyway, the fog makes them think they can either hide it all or have all of it exposed. Never a reasonable medium just one extreme to the other. <p>Anyways, zoom to yesterday. H said that he no longer was upset about my posting at MB. Hm..... I know it bothers him a bit but not like before. <p>Remember I said you seem like you are a couple of months behind? Well, I hope your H gets to that point also. I mean really, our stories have already done the wild thing...right?...think H is gonna try for a sequel? LOL!!! [img]images/icons/shocked.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Hey, doesn't your H have his mom nearby? He can go over there. hm.... I mean it sounds like he wants you to push him out so he can push you out so you can push him out. Confusing? yep, more fogese thinking. <p>L.

Hey, hi... just got home from work.. yuk..<p>nice name.. hope they don't much snooping and find this one too...<p>z

CALYPSO--cool!<p>I think you can pray for God's wisdom. That is a good prayer to pray when we don't know how to pray or what to pray for. Wisdom from above will lead you to paths of peace. (See James Chapter 1)

Calypso,<p>You always ask the REALLY hard questions. <p>Your questions:
Does he have it in him to love you? Can you tell this from history? <p>My guess is that someone who can love at all, has it in him to love you too. I think that's what the Harleys keep telling us - that MB is about getting those feelings moved in your direction. Will pride, anger, guilt be so powerful as to prevent that from ever happening? <p>I'm thinking now about what a lot of us here (at MB) are expecting to happen to our own Ms. Do we want the exact same person, but just change our interactions? Or, are we hoping that the changing interactions will bring out previously unseen features in each other?<p>I'll say that I've seen a different W and a different Jeffers than I've ever seen before as a result of our MB work. I need to run now but I'll probably come back to this thought later. You've got me thinking again.<p>Jeffers

Hey Cali! Just got a chance to log on now (spent the day with H)...<p>I am sorry to hear that your H still doesn't see the importance of MB to you. Hey, with this new system, won't you stay logged on and your H will see your username anyway?<p>Just curious, mine stays logged on for me... I guess you could remember to logout each time, I always forget.<p>That's a pretty tough stalemate. I guess your only recourse would be to start making plans to move out with you and the kids. Nothing definate, but you should at least know your options, incase it came to that. Relatives nearby? Friends? <p>Good luck.
HbH