<blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr>Originally posted by sofar2go:
<strong>Pat,
You&#8217;re certainly not alone!!! My WS is sitting 30 feet from me and may as well be on Mars. Yesterday she was warm and friendly, even hugged me back! Today she barely speaks to me. I touch her and she doesn&#8217;t even acknowledge it most of the time. An &#8220;I love you&#8221; is met with silence or a &#8220;I know&#8221; or the occasional &#8220;thank you&#8221; like I got her a coffee refill&#8230; Some days I think I made a mistake coming home&#8230; We do what we have to do, we do what we can. <p>No one here knows why I&#8217;m still here, they don&#8217;t understand. They don&#8217;t understand that I&#8217;ve not had a conscious thought she wasn&#8217;t a part of in 22 years, or that my entire world, all I am, all I&#8217;ve been and all I will be is built around an &#8220;us&#8221;. Don&#8217;t expect them to understand Pat. You have to walk in our shoes to fully understand. Know that there&#8217;s a bunch of great people here that do understand and feel your pain. My thoughts will be with you!!!<p>Paul</strong><hr></blockquote>

Hi MNM dont know what to say to make you feel better, just want you to know i feel the same as you about my H and M.
(((((Pat))))) to you dosent help but i know you need one.
Liz

My god, what you have been put through! I am soooooo sorry.
I am also on Wellbutrin and have found that it not only helps my emotions but helps me to sleep. I have been a hopeless insomniac since all this started, and this has me out 20 minutes after I take it. It is great to not lay there and stress for hours, Hope this helps, Wish I had more advice though...

Thanks everyone for your posts. I actually had a good day today. I had fun teaching....and for the first time in a long time...I haven't felt miserable. I don't know why....but it sure feels good.<p>I didn't get a chance to call the doctor..and have to run now to piano lessons for 3 of the kids. I appreciate all the suggestions tho.<p>C A L I....thanks so much for the miracle story. Somehow, I think the holidays will be alright. I hope so anyway. I hope I feel like I do today. I had a super parent conference today....lots of accolades. THose are few and far between in my field. It was nice. <p>Still have to figure out how to pay the bills..But I am not going to worry about them. It will get done. I better run to piano lessons....thanks again for your posts!! Pat