Well, within the next hour I'll be sitting across from my XW's counselor. This the first time I've ever had the opportunity to talk with him. I'm pretty nervous. I don't know what to expect or hope for. Wondering if he can give me encouragement to continue or a reason to give up. He is the only person she feels like understands her, but I'm pretty sure she hasn't told him the whole truth.<p>She's coming in right after my appointment. Wonder if he'll ask me to stay so we can all talk. Just hope there's some kind of progress. Heck, right now I just hope she doesn't come up with an excuse to cancel her appointment.<p>Say a prayer for me folks... I'm ready to move past this, but do NOT want to. I believe in our future together, but after a year of this roller-coaster, I'm ready to quit. And I hate thinking of myself as a quitter... I don't want to give up on something so important, but I can't do it alone anymore. She has been throwing me scraps to hold on to for hope, but it feels so much like she's just doing this for everyone else's approval. She tells me she loves me, she tells me she wants to work this out, she tells me she isn't seeing anyone but me. But she's lied about all that before...