Hi,
It's done and ready to be delivered tomorrow. Forgot to ask what's the best form to send it. I chose to write an oldfashioned hand written letter, instead of email. I think email is so easy to delete and H will see my handwriting. It could stir some emotions up, because we used to write huge amount of letters to each other in the early nineties.
H is pretty angry at the moment. Called me on Wednesday and was foaming about the finances and kid's visits. Didn't like he had to pick them up at his parents place(he's angry at them too) and that he had not been informed early enough. I answered the phone not knowing it was him (can't have caller ID on this area)It was too hard to stop talking. I have been on plan B 5 weeks now and I have been able to gain my emotional balance. These angry outbursts aren't helpful, knocked me off a bit. Still can't understand why H is so unhappy in his new life without me?? It could be because he's broke and blaming everyone else for it. Maybe can't shower OW with expensive gifts anymore and OW is looking for a rich guy. I am not sure though if OW's in the picture anymore.
I told H I am planning to move further away with the children and it didn't seem to be a problem for him even though there will be an extra 100km to travel.He was foaming he didn't care less where I moved and that he's quite content with not being in touch with me. Just didn't sound very convincing to me... he would never ever admit he's missing me.
The letter will make him even more mad. I am not worried , I feel good I was able to do it. I feel it's the final attempt, and whatever happens I know I did everything I could to save the marriage( what a cliche, but anyway that's the way it is)
I am looking forward living the rest of my life happy, with or without him.<p>Inner srength to you all.
