I came across this letter I wrote to my W today. I wrote it about 2 weeks after d-day#1, before I found MB. I read it and it stirred up a bunch of feelings, I thought I would share it with you all. Perhaps you can add a letter or note you felt was moving.<p>Hi honey,<p>I wanted to write to you a letter of how I feel in the hopes that I could express my total feelings. I know we have had our good times and with those, our bad times. I have had feelings that we got lost along the way, somewhere between work and kids and normal everyday life. I think somewhere, somehow we, or I, forgot what it was all for, what we meant to each other. I think the routine of life got in the way of the love I feel for you. I am very sad that it took the knowledge of your affair to make me realize how much I love you. I am very sorry that it happened and I would do anything to have you do it over again but we know what has happened is real and nothing can change it, and it will always be with us. I do feel we can use this to better our marriage and make it so much better. I am sorry I have neglected you and I haven't been there for you when you needed me, this I can change though, I promise I will make every attempt to be there for you when you need me. I feel that I am partly at blame because I wasn't always there for you, and I am sorry. I know that you have felt as much pain as I, and I don't know that I could make it through this by myself, but with you by my side I will try my very best to help you through this, I only ask that you be patient with me: forgiveness will come with time. <p>When I first learned of the infidelity I wanted nothing to do with you, and I had hate running through my body. I realize now that I never hated you, I was very angry, confused, and in total shack, the truth is I love you and you hurt me a lot. Now, I know that I can get past this I can move on and eventually I will forgive you because I love you. I really hope that you can forgive yourself and stay by my side to help me forgive you. <p>Five years ago I married you. I loved you more than you can imagine. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and our unborn child. It was the happiest day of my life , even though I was so nervous I drove around the block on the way to the church, I knew it was what I wanted. When I stood in that church in front of God, I gave you all of me, I gave you all of my love and all of my heart. I knew we could go from that church and become the best family and the best husband and wife ever. I knew that nothing could stop the love I had for you, and with that nothing could stop us. Now I feel that same love again, Somewhere along the long road that has led us to this point that love faded, but never left. I knew I loved you, but forgot how much I really love you, now I remember. I just was to busy with work and life to see It. As painful as this has been, It has made me see how much I love you, I never lost the love, it was always there. When I stood in that church and gave you my heart I knew that over the years you might not take care of it or you might hurt it. Now I know you have broken it, but I don't want to take it back, I want you to keep it. I just want you to help me to put all the pieces back together. I want you to hold it close and take very good care of it because as you know it is very delicate and easily broken. And if you do this for me I will continue to give you all my love.<p>
Sincerely
Your loving husband
E<p>P.S. You will always be the love of my life.
