After 3 month separation, H finally decided a month ago he wanted to "date". He started calling every day and we saw each other several times a week. Last Sat was a dinner and movie and he slept overnight with me. I thought everything was going great. But last night he told me he didn't want to try anymore. He said he felt uncomfortable. He also said he didn't want to make me unhappy anymore. What happened ? I have cried all night and still can't stop.
I have said all along that I thought his depression (MLC) came in cycles... is he just in another down cycle ? Do I go back to distancing myself again. I hurt so bad AGAIN !! This emotional rollercoaster is killing me. Now i am thinking that he needs to break away from me so he can go meet one of his internet "friends" for Christmas !! He tells me there is no one else. I asked him to be honest with me. But he says he is not going anywhere. He just can't explain why to me. I need to know what is going on... I can't figure it out. After 24years of marriage .. and 3 years of this hell... I finally thought he was coming out of it. I was so pleased that he wanted contact. But it only lasted 3 weeks and now he wants nothing again. Why ? Does this happen in recovery ? Is this to be expected ? Will he come out of it again ? What can I do now ? I am so tired. I thought after 3 - 4 years of this that it would come to an end soon. I love him and want him ....
Please help me today.

Your hurt is felt and understood. Your husband is going through a lot of emotional ups and downs himself, he loves you but doesn't know how to show it right now. The best thing you can do for your husband and yourself is to PRAY! Give it to God and put all your faith in Him. <p>You will find encouragement and hope from a website called restorem.org, there you will see testimonies of women and men who have gone through what you are going through, and have relied on God to get them through, and have seen their marriages and families restored.<p>God bless!