I am on my last string. Last night my h. said that he could go out "tomorrow" and "sleep with anyone" and it wouldn't be cheating because our marriage is null and void. You know, it makes me mad because then I'll start to cry and he's all "I do love you". He isn't sorry he had an a., never will be. I'm so tired of it being ok for him to be rude and make snide comments about me, but I can't say anything. He asked me this morning if I was going to have a good Christmas and I said, "it's just another day". I'm so sick of this. He keeps saying, "you know how I feel, I'm here because I can't let me kids down." Well, you know what, that's just not good enough for me. I'm not going to stay with him, based on what "he could" eventually do. I'm wading through Christmas and then I'm moving on. I don't want him at the hospital when I have the baby, I don't want him in my bed saying that he can be with me because "it's only sex". He told me last night that I would cheat on him again, because he is never going to be there for me. I'm tired. I'm through letting my life be ruled by what he thinks I should be doing, he even tells me when to go to bed, what am I a CHILD!!!!

You said: I'm so tired of it being ok for him to be rude and make snide comments about me, but I can't say anything.
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Why can't you say anything?<p>Are you two in counseling? <p>I think your plan sounds good about "moving on after Christmas".<p>I am also glad you realized you can't let him rule your life by what he thinks you should be doing<p>I am sorry you are here. I know it is 10 times as hard because you are pregnant. You sound very angry and that is good! Let the anger fuel the fire to give you the strength to do what you need to do to take care of you.

<p>[ January 20, 2002: Message edited by: MMMMM ]</p>

BUMP, BUMP!!!!<p>[ December 21, 2001: Message edited by: kevco- ]</p>

Kevco has a good point...in the end, the OP isn't what needs to be really focused on.