<p>[ January 20, 2002: Message edited by: Bunny ]</p>

Hi K,<p>It would take pages to describe it all, but let me see if I can get it into a paragraph or so...<p>If I had to put a degree to my affair, it would have been 80% emotional, 20% physical. <p>I was in the midst of one doozie of a mid-life crisis (MLC) and although it's not an excuse, I truly wasn't in my right mind. <p>I loved my (then)H and I think I had the affair for two reasons -- one, because it felt good to have the OM want me, and two, to get my (then)H's attention. It worked well on both fronts... perhaps a bit too well, since my (then)H turned around and cheated on me (again, since he'd cheated in years prior). <p>I ended the affair because it was WRONG and I couldn't stand to live in my skin for one second longer. I wanted to die. My moral compasss was screaming that I was living outside of my parameters... I am a Christian, and I couldn't pray unless it was over. Unfortunately, the marriage still couldn't be saved...<p>I am now married to someone else.<p>I hope your H realizes the truth before he loses you altogether. My H, who kept his last OW for a year after our marriage ended, realizes now what he lost, and he's miserable.<p>I hope I've helped... if you have any more questions, let me know. Of course, feel free to do a search on me... look in late 1999, early 2000... that's where most of my story is located.<p>Best wishes...

<p>[ January 20, 2002: Message edited by: Bunny ]</p>