Do you believe in angels, my son? You should, they are always there when you least expect them and they have faces like yours and mine, speak our language, look like us.

Son, you know I will always love you from here to the sun and you tell me, with all your innocence that’s being stolen from you by force, that your love for me is as big as the size of the sky and the stars and all the galaxies together, as much as God loves us. You are my angel. You are THE reason for this. I was given this huge responsibility and do you know what? I embrace it wholeheartedly as I embrace you. Your mom used to say, as recently as May of last year that she always felt protected by me when I hugged her. I wonder, do you also feel that way?

Son, I learn so much from you. You asked me to put my wedding ring back on my finger and I did. I did it because as I told you I’m still married to your mom and this ring represents that. I want you to know, son, I have been doing all I can to keep your parents together. You deserve nothing better. Remember what I have always told you, “always love your mother, and always take care of her.” Did you know you are her angel too? You are our special blessing, the fruit of our love. God loves each of us, never doubt that.

Do you see that butterfly? Do you see how it flies? Do you see the beauty of its colors? It is that way for a reason.

Do you see that spider? Do you see the web it built? Do you see how treacherous it is? It is that way for a reason.

Do you hear that bird singing? It sings for you, listen and enjoy. Its song is beautiful for a reason.

Do you hear the siren’s song? She sings for you as well, but don’t be fooled, she only lulls you so you can fall under her spell. Walk away. She too exist for a reason.

Not everything that glitters is gold. Don’t you ever exchange your gold for copper, my father said to your mom once.

What are you dreaming at this moment, my son? Happy dreams, I hope. Alexander Pope said that hope springs eternal. Never lose faith. Everything happens for a reason. God is always with you.

A few days ago you told me you never lie; let me remind you what Alexander Pope also said “He who tells a lie is not sensible how great a task he undertakes; for he must be forced to invent twenty more to maintain that one.” You are wise my son in never telling a lie.

One day, my son, you will travel to the moon and you will look at the earth and you will think of me and I will think of you. I will see a little speck on the moon and I will tell everybody, no, wait, I will shout with tears of joy, “that little speck on the moon is my son.” I will say, “He always wanted to take me there but I’m too old to go now and he will bring me a piece of the moon.” And we will both prove to your mother that what I told her was true that the moon has a reflecting surface which always transmitted my love to her no matter where she was.

Anyway, my son, I shall continue to write to you. I love you, but you know that already. Remember to always, always love your mother.

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Are you keeping these in a "time capsule" of sorts, for your son?

Karen

UC, that is so beautiful it brings a tear to my eye. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />

STTSI

I don't know where I'm going to keep all this for him yet. I am planning to give him all these when he's old enough to understand. 25, perhaps? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> When he was born I bought him a book that his mom and I would be writing on throughout his life. Basically writing our impressions, feelings of being parents, etc. We haven't done a good job of keeping it up to date.

I'm also keeping a journal for him about love and marriage. Observations that I have learned these past 10 months. I wish I would have something like this but more importantly, had I had it, I wish I would have listened!

uc:

You see? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

THIS is just as much a factor in YOUR growth as you hope it will be for your son someday.

For example, I never did anything like that, nor had anybody talk to me about M like that before D-day, and I was 48 years old when D-day was thrust opon me. If I'd known then what I know now... But if you give this letter, or more importantly, the teachings of that letter to your son as he grows up and starts taking an interest in a life with some gal, you will have done him a tremendous service!

all my best,
-Qfwfq

Yes, hopefully my son can learn from both of us. Obviously what I want to leave him with is to believe in M and to believe it is a commitment for life. Hopefully what he can learn from mom is to not make the same mistake. I believe in order for his mom to teach him that she has to get out of the fog first.

I am amazed at my growth myself although since Valentine's day I've had quite a few relapses. I've been down almost everyday, the future looks bleak, I want my W back and more. My son sounded sad when he left me a message this morning and I haven't been able to speak with him because my W will not answer her phone nor return my calls. Every time we speak he asks me the same question, "when am I going to visit you again?" Can't she see what she's doing to him??? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

Anyway, thanks for your replies.