I dont know whats happened, but yesterday morning I woke up and BAM! I am free of it all . I feel total indifference to the A. To the OW. To the hurt , the pain ... its like I have had a weight lifted totally off my shoulders.

I love the feeling and am embracing it fro all its glory.

Yesterday afternoon my husband and I were talking, I was trying to explain how I felt and then.. BAM... I got up off the chair walked over to my husband, kissed his forehead and said..I forgive you.

I shed a few tears, then this feeling of self worth, self love hit me like a great big dose of ..thats it I have no idea!( spiritual perhaps?). But I feel totally alive... the look on his face was like a lost boy.

Then he got angry and spewed a heap of crud...how can you forgive and so forth ... his voice was near venemous. It would have usually hurt me, but all I could respond back was with.. I love you..

This morning we spoke again. I Hugged him and said smile , embrace it. He said he can't... He can't forgive himself and cannot understand why after all the pain his actions have caused. I still love him...more than that...forgive him..totally..something I did not think even I could ever do.

I kinda figure this is the guild where the WS has the harder time at recovering.

Any wise ones out there....what can I do for him.. I want to share this feeling with him. He deserves to feel it too.

We have both suffered , but now I feel like I have leapfrogged him.

And I honestly don't know what to do for him.

Wow what a revelation. You are one faithful woman. It seems what you have done is put your husband in a spot. He sees you moving forward, and excepting his adulterous life as his sin, and have forgiven him. What he doesn't see is why you are not mad, angry, etc. towards him.

I will give you the biggest hug in the world. You know who did this, and that is God. God has made you so special, and helped you get through this. I admire you, wished I had done the same. But my husband acted differently.

Keep smiling, keep hugging, keep kissing him on the forhead. Keep God in your heart.