BR,
I would like to talk to you on the phone if that is possible? Email me at address below & I can give you an 800# to reach me.
Tonight I did a search of your old posts on the DV board and read through them (At least the ones that you started) At this point I have accepted that this M is dead the way it is, that if it is ever to be something (and it might not ever be anything) that I have to let it go.
I am at that place,ready to let go of WH, have seen an attorney recently (not filed at this point) and WH is talking about commning home. He doesn't know that I have been to an attorney. I have been detatching and removing this man from my heart and have come to the place where I know I would be OK without him. In my case, per the attorney, my financial situation would be much worse if I go ahead and file. Attorney suggested that if I could hold off, while increasing my income and decreasing debts that I would be better off. That was my plan to keep plodding along and improving my financial situation. Then WH starts talking about comming home, but no mention of recovery from alcohol/ drugs or our M. He did admit that he screwed up in the business in Penna, which is actually pretty huge for him.
WH's brother and a friend have been trying to do an intervention on WH, but he's like a slimey fish, not easy to catch. I reconize the alcoholic addicted behavior for what it is and can see it with my head. It's my heart that gets in the way at times. WH's friend thinks that I should DV WH, that he will never be the husband that I want or need. In the end, it is my decision based on God's guidance.
I wrote on the DV board, that I am ready to turn over WH to God to let Him do with him as he wills. That I can detatch with love at this point. If WH gets sober and truley works on recovery then God will have to work in that situation because I couldn't image doing it by myself.
Itis easier for me to talk rather than write everything out, it seems that I may not express myself with written words.
BR, thanks so much for all you have given on these boards.
D.
