I have been on and off this site for well over 5 months now. I have not posted very often but have gone in and read alot of the posts. I think that H and I have finally rounded the bend and are headed for recovery now. H had an affair and I found out about it a while ago for people who don't know our situation. It has been such a long road and I really feel now after everything, the phone calls, his lies and deceptions, he has finally let the OW go for good. Almost left him Halloween night when he lied about who had called him. Told me she called to wish him a Happy Halloween,(how old are we?)BLAH! Finally decided to take my self respect back and quit letting them make a fool out of me. The kids were there, bad situation but reality set in for him when the kids were crying. He asked me if he was blowing it, told him "yes". He cried very hard, I didn't. I told him that I had no regrets, I stayed and gave it everything that I had. I was patient, loving and supportive but I just couldn't allow it anymore. I left for awhile, after packing my suitcase which I fully intended to leave. The next day he was so affectionate and has continued ever since. We went out on Sat night and had a good time together. He was upset that I wasn't wearing my ring still but I told him that when the time was right I would put it back on, (which I have). He hasn't taken his off once since Halloween. I truly feel he has recommited to the relationship as he knew that's what it meant to me. He no longer lies about what he does, as a matter of fact he goes out of his way to tell me what he is doing everyday. Maybe I shocked him into reality by almost leaving and really meaning it. Tough Love I think they call it? I hope someday I will trust him as much as I did but for now I am happy with the way we are and the way he is towards me. We are "IN LOVE" again and it is a wonderful feeling! I have waited such a long time to feel this way and it was definately worth the wait! I prayed to Jesus and I really think he heard me. All I asked him for was to have my H's heart back. I know that good things happen and hope that someday you will all know that feeling. Maybe we have to suffer to know that something good will come out of it. I am no longer proud and not afraid to tell my H how much he means to me or how I feel about him. You'll never know what reading some of your posts meant to me. I never felt alone and gained alot of courage and strength. Even though I didn't know all of you I felt like I did. God Bless CHERUB

Cherub,<P>That's so wonderful! I am going to pray for your continued success. It's so good to hear, so good to hear that someone is making it! Especially someone that knows the fear that all of us have - the fear that your S will not come back!<P>Oh, your story makes me smile. God Bless you and your family!<P>Joe

PRAISE GOD!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE GOOD NEWS!! THERE IS HOPE!!! GOD BLESS & PRAYERS FRANK<P>------------------<BR>desperate<BR>"If yesterday didn't stop today, Why should TODAY stop tomorrow??" <BR>"Wisdom is why!!"<P>

Congratulations, Cherub! It's encouraging to hear some good news. Are you guys working on the issues that caused the affair in the first place?

YYYAAAAYYY, Cherub. Keep up the good work. I'm pulling for you guys.<P>Lori

Dear Cherub,<P>Your story is the inspiration to keep the rest of us going and searching for truth and answers and peace. Good luck!!!

Hi Cherub,<BR>your story brought tears to my eyes - I'm so happy to read that it can work out. Congratulations, and please know<BR>"I want to be just like you when I grow up!!!" All my very best wishes for continued happiness. Jo

Thanks Joe John, Please Help, Sidney, lostva, wafflestoo, and Bonnet. Your words of encouragement mean a whole lot to me. Sorry I didn't get on sooner to say that, it seems like I work alot these days. I've also been spending alot of time with H when I am off so I don't get alot of time by myself, but am starting to learn that there are times that I need to be alone and take care of myself and now I really look foward to Mondays when H and kids are off at school. H just got a job,(he is a full time student working at his BA in secondary education) and now he will be working full time overnights plus going to school during the day and then doing his homework. I think this will be the best thing for both of us. He won't have time to even focus on anything except what goes on in this family. I will take care of him and I will never take him or our relationship for granted again. I love him very much and need him in my life. Funny how something can change you so much but not always for the worst. There will still be bad days I know, but I strived for more good days then bad and I think that those days are here. Still want to *69 the phone but I don't. Still want to ask him questions about her but I don't. I think it's better that way. Wouldn't be fair to keep throwing it in his face. He needs to know that I can trust him again and I will do my damndest to do that for him. <BR>I will keep up my prayers for you guys. There really were times that I didn't think that I would make it but Jesus lifted me up and gave me what I needed to endure and he still will. Without his love and unfailing patience for me I would have never gotten this far. Pray alot, it works, he listens this I know. Pray for your spouse, for their hearts, to make the right decisions in his eyes. He is my #1 priority, without him I wouldn't have what I have.<BR> Love to you all<BR> Kellie