I'm somewhat new here and its time for me to reach out. My husband and I havent had the easiest road to walk on, but we have somehow made it through every crises we encountered. This last year or so has been hell though. My husband began work with a company 6 years ago...that office closed, so we relocated across the US..hubby began to feel the company wasnt offering what he wanted...no advancment so he found another company..we move out of state to that job.

To add to the mix, we have three boys and they were miserable with the move. After only a few months this new company began to fall apart and was very stressful on my husband...he was unbearble to live with...abusive and very angry. In a desperate measure he was able to get his old job back...we moved again. Unfortunately we havent been able to sell the old house...twice potential buyers have backed out at the last minute...so we now have two mortages.

I also got my old job back, but just a few weeks ago the bomb was dropped that hubby's office is closing...moving across the country. We visited the area and I dont like it...the boys dont want to move again...hubby has mixed feelings but is driven by the possibilities. He could make alot more money...have security..more possibilites for advancement but says he doesnt like the area either.

I'm afraid..very very afraid. I dont know if I can take the move again, but I'm staying very quiet and keeping things to myself. I would never want my husband to resent me for holding him back. I want him to feel good about himself, but inside I'm falling apart. I have always tried to be a supportive and loving wife..but I feel myself slipping away. I'm scared and I'm angry and I just want to handle this the right way.

Sorry for the rambling...but it feels good to get it out. Any advice or thoughts would be so helpful.

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