Pep:

No, I haven't. I will check it out and get back 2 you.

I've not been having a good day, except when dealing with work, which is getting MAJORLY FUN (is it okay for a 50-yr old 2 have fun at work???).

My W is having 2 stay up north 2night 2 be able 2 deal with employee problems for another day at least, but that's okay, 'cause I need the quiet time. But last night she was complaining about an email from her boss. I helped her edit a response, and when she sent it I saw an email from RM about his results. The subject was "I hope you get this before you leave", meaning, probably, before she leaves for her property out of state in about a week and a half. This is "good" because she needs to get this report done before she goes, but it's "bad" because he's "aware" of things that are none of his freakin' business. ...and then, of course, I'm annoyed with myself for chickening out and not telling her this interp. And annoyed that I "know" it won't do any good anyway.

-2long.

It'll be interesting 2 read the next installment of that article.

I must be in "early July" in Brian's calendar. Only I've never done any of the mean things he did, I certainly have thought them.

Right now, I'm trying 2 determine if I give a darn.

-2long.

"Is there someway I can be myself and still be married to you?"

Part 3.

Emotional fusion.

Pepper:

Yes! Emotional Fusion on both our parts, I'm afraid.

But the fear is subsiding here at least. Been having mood swings the past 2ple of days. Can't say I'm not human, after all! But I think I'm leveling off okay. I feel some "resolve" coming over me, and a sense of peace. I am resolved 2 have RM out of MY life, at least, and I can accept that my W may not be able 2 erradicate him form her life. I'm still a bit saddened that I may have 2 DV 2 "get there," but I want her 2 have the lifestyle she believes she needs, 2. I guess I have 2 realize that it is possible that he's such an important part of her career interests that she can't let go of the friendship.

I'll be okay.
-2long

I know you'll be OK.

I just like checking in with you .... the "mom" in me!

Pep <img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" />

Afternoon, Qlong.

Been having mood swings the past 2ple of days. Can't say I'm not human, after all! But I think I'm leveling off okay.

You need a long term solution to this, not a short term one. Extra SF for a day or two is nice but doesn't make things right.

But........you already know that.

I continue to worry that one day you will say enough is enough and just D.

I proably shouldn't vent on your thread. Wish things were "fixed" and life was better alround.

You never say much about your son - is he OK with all this other stuff going on?

SS

SS:

I worry about my short-termness, 2. At least SF isn't the "problem" right now. I'm not interested. Much, anyway. Well, a little, but I'm not pressuring HER with it. At all.

My son and I have a parent-kid thang 2 go 2 at Kaiser this afternoon. My W is out of town so can't go this time.

Tomorrow I head up 2 the mountains for a weekend "fun" conference. He was supposed 2 go with, but he said this morning he didn't know if he wanted 2 after all. My W will come up for one day, and may bring him and his friends then. Daughter is across the pond.

We head out past your place in just over a week. I'll be there for a week, then my W is staying on and I'll come back in my own car. Maybe we could meet then? (like 2 weeks or so?).

Current report is nearing completion, but she's got RM working on the next one, so 5 more months at least...

Groan.
-2long

Well, a little, but I'm not pressuring HER with it. At all.

Yeah, me too, but she sometimes says she feel preasure because of past history. Things are "better" anyway.

Tomorrow I head up 2 the mountains for a weekend "fun" conference. He was supposed 2 go with, but he said this morning he didn't know if he wanted 2 after all.
Sounds like a teenage boy. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />
I know all about that, my 17 year old did that to me last night. He did go in the end. I didn't even have to break his arm. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

My W will come up for one day, and may bring him and his friends then.
Hope you have "fun."
Is this one of those "any day doing this is better than work" deals, or is this one of those things where you have to cook for 500 people and wish you were at work?

We head out past your place in just over a week. I'll be there for a week, then my W is staying on and I'll come back in my own car. Maybe we could meet then? (like 2 weeks or so?).
I have a youth conference I am helping with 29-31. Will be gone with W 2-4th of june but then home till the 12th when we leave for a three day packpack trip.
Any of the other days I would be glad to see you!
Sunday I am in meetings from about 8:00 AM to 3:00 PM but free after that. I go to leadership meetings and teach classes ( you get out of a lot of stuff.) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Let me know if any of those other days will work!!

Once you said you might not ever go again, what are your thoughts now?

Current report is nearing completion, but she's got RM working on the next one, so 5 more months at least...
Later edit,
I forgot this one, I would groan too. And then will there be a next one after that?

I could comment, but you know what I'm thinking.

SS

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