Hi everyone its been almost a week since I have posted anything. All you guys were right about honesty. Last Thursday and Friday were crazy and H and I were talking about seperating for awhile. H at this point did not know I was pregnant. I went back and re-read all your post and realize there was no way I could preach honesty to my WH when I was not being honest myself.

I finally told him Sat. morning after two days of fighting and crying. H was beside himself. At first we were still going to seperate. Then Sat. nite about 3:00am in the morning H finally broke down. He told me how truly sorry he was and that I was his wife and he loved me. Then he asked me if this could be fixed? I said yes with 100% commitment from both of us and alot of help and support. H started to cry and told me he would do whatever it took to fix this. He said our children did not deserve this. We talked and cried and H said to me please dont let anyone ever come between us again. H also asked me to bear with him..he said he will be okay in alittle bit.

Sun. I had a party to go to and H stayed home with all the kids. When I came home I noticed he put his wedding ring back on. I said Oh my God you dont know what that means to me..thank you. H said no thank you for still being here.

There has been N/C since Saturday. H seems to have some withdraw symptoms but keeps reassuring me he will be okay.

I guess now I need know how do I handle the next couple of weeks with the withdraw. Please help you guys always have

L

Lisa I know that it's easier said than done, but part of that commitment to rebuild your M MUST include the The Rule Of Time otherwise you'll just continue being nothing more than roommates and unpaid babysitters for your children.

Which of your H's ENs are you going to focus on fulfilling?

May I suggest a goal for you for this week?

Keep your emotional business manageable. Pregnancy makes your emotional twists and turns more difficult. Take all your feelings, and make them YOUR business to manage, without expectations that your H will manage them for you.

This is good Lisa!

Pep

Lisa,

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hugz,
L.

Okay everyone its been a really hard week. H has been depressed, agitated and angry. Its been very hard for me to seem like I have done anything right.

Today he contacted OW so I guess this just starts all over again. Last night we had a long talk about him not being able to turn off his feelings for her. I told him I did not expect him to do so. He still says he does not know how we can fix this. I also told him last night that if her has any contact with OW, that I would have nothing left to say to him regarding our recovery because there could not be true recovery with contact. I really dont know what to do. Please help.

Lisa,

The to do list right now exists in his court. You work on not letting your needs list diminish. It is not healthy to enable an A.

So pray for patience, a clear mind and a calm heart.

JMHO,
L.

Lisa,

Thank you for the update. Sorry I haven't returned the post till now, but I have been working a lot of extra shifts, and this morning is the first time I have had a chance to get back to you.

Glad that you told your H about your pregnancy. I am sorry to hear that you have been having a tough time emotionally over this.

Lisa, try to take care of yourself for the baby. You don't need to be arguing and having a lot of stress right now. Not good for you and baby. I know that will be twice as hard now that pregnancy hormones are kicking in.

Just try to step away from your emotions, from reacting to what your WS is doing right now. You have your own stuff to deal with. WS contact with ow must be really hard for you right now, but that is not your choice. As Orchid said, the ball is in your H court right now.

My only advice right now is that you read up here and continue to plan A as much as you are able. Don't argue and LB. Not good for you.

How do I explain this? Okay, when you start feeling angry or hurt, just OBSERVE that you are feeling that way. You can say, okay, I'm angry (in a calm manner). Recognize your emotions, but don't REACT by LBing or venting to your H. Just acknowledge your feelings, feel them and then let them go when they start fading. Don't hold onto them, let them go. And vent here on MB if you need to.

Remove yourself from WS and ow drama. You need to protect your baby, yourself and your children. Try to go about your daily life as normal and step back from whatever else is going on that is not emotionally healthy for you.

Sounds like your H has remorse, and does want to try, but it might take awhile for him to come out of the fog, so you need to plan A and be your sweet self as much as you can.

Once again, just step back, observe, and don't react, and remember Miss M is praying for you and your situation.

{{{{{{{{{Hugs, Lisa!}}}}}}}}} <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M

Thanks Miss M..I am really trying to keep everything intact but it is so hard. H told me the contact yesterday was to tell her he was never going to talk to her again. Okay fine..but how do I deal with him now. He is obviously torn up because of this and because of his love for OW. He has not let me try to help him at all. When he looks me I see nothing. He just keeps pulling further and further away from me. I have never felt so alone as I do right now. I just feel as though what H once felt for me is totally gone now. I mean he was much more attentive and caring toward me when he was still seeing her. How sick is that. I just dont understand. I am afraid to talk to him, touch him, I just dont know how to act. And of course I am super sensitive about because of the hormones.

My H is not happy about this pregnancy, he told me and our MC it is the most devastating thing that has ever happened to him. And believe me H has been through plenty of S%%t since the age of 16. I feel as though I am just in the way now. I really dont even know how I am still carrying this baby.

I guess I need to hear from someone who has gone through this. I mean my H is in love with another woman and is in terrible pain because that relationship has ended. How am I suppose to feel? It makes me wonder if he would feel the same pain if I was gone tomorrow. Someone please help. I have to stop now because I dont want my kids to see me cry.

(((((((((HUG)))))))))) LISA you must take care of yourself and that baby . THAT is what is important , I am not saying your M is not , but your health Is more important then anything else no matter what ..

I read your post and cried with you , .

DO you really belive that he is in love with OW ??
DO you feel that deep down inside ?

I belived it so strongly at one point when H was leaving then while he was gone all I had left in me was to hear it come out of his mouth ,, I begged say the words to my face look me in the eyes and I made a desicion that if he did I would stay away from him and never look back ..

I couldn't take that feeling that I thought he was but couldn't understand how he could be .

After exposing the A , OW told him to call me and tell me he loved her .. Needless to say , he called and said, I LOVE OW and might even get M ..

WELL I felt everything you are saying ,, if that was so why would I want him ,?? and I don't want someone out of pity , guilt , or because of history together .

SO that is when I went N/C with him.

BUT first I asked him the next day when he came to pick up my kids just say it to my face , look me in the eyes . He did not and never again spoke those words for her to me ..

You see I am convinced that if your in love , you won't be without that person , you couldn't .

If he is in love why is he not with her?? EVEN before you told him about the baby why did he not leave ??

YOU did not force him to stay .

This OW is an escape from reality , things get crazy and he gets scared , so instead of fixing cause it takes a mature adult to do so he ran .

And yes it does not make sense when WS runs to someone who has more problems ,, but to them its not their problems so they feel like they are being responsiable to help fix someone elses .

JMVHO ,, from the info you have given about OW and him ..

He was in a fantasy forgetting his own responsiabliies , now he needs to wake up and know that he has a life hear and if he wants it he needs to pick up his little BUTT and stop feeling sorry for himself and get to work on it ..

YOU CAN NOT MAKE HIM DO ANYTHING HE IS NOT WILLING TO DO !!!!

PLEASE listen to the advice you get , I am not saying you have to do everything that someone here tells you , BUT PLAESE read it and read it again . I was so head strong in the beging always venting that I was not listening for a long time and it only took longer with alot more pain to get to the point I am at now ..

AND no I did not do eveything eveyone said, but the things I started to take in helped me in my situation ..

ORCHID ,, MISS M some great things they will tell you .

AND I know you say WS is in IC but what about YOU ?

ARE you talking to someone ,, for you ..

THIS took me so long and I wish I did it sooner ..

I know what it is like to be only consumed with WS problems and want to reach in and fix it for them and to take there pain and help them ..

BUT , there comes a point where that is not healthy for YOU !!! Being the best you can be for some one is not nessery the best thing ,, YOU need to be the best most healthyest for you first ..

HOW did your parents react to the pregnacy ?? I know they have been wonderful for support for you since they found out .

AND ok does the OW know you are pregnet . ??

PLEASE take care of yourself . AND like MM told you it is hard very hard to step back some times and not RE-ACT ,

THIS does work , like MM said to you OBSERVE and do not keep it bottled up , they are you emotions and have merit ,, but how you learn to deal with them is the key ..I may have not got it down to the MISS M has it but I did learn and it works even with my kids LOL

I know I am getting angry , I think about it and I ask myself what is making me angry , ? hoe rashanal is the person saying it ? ARE they acting out of anger and where is it going to get me if I counter attack ?? WILL I be more upset ?? WILL that person even here what I have to say ?? NO they won't because to people yelling and screaming and crying don't know a dam thing they said and did not resolve anything ..

WALK away if you have to go for a walk and talk to your self till your calm ..

ONCE you put your feelings and emoyions in order then you can think clearly about what is going on and some times you will be suprised somethings are not even worth addressing when WS is in FOG ..

OK SO Miss M did I get that right ?? LOL

LISA I am thinging of you all the time and praying for you and your family .. OBSERVE all and think with a clear mind and heart .

(((((((hugs )))))))to you girl ..

Lisa,

I know times are hard for you right now and that your H is going thru withdrawl.

So the pregancy is devastating for him? What about you? You weren't planning this, and these things do happen in spite of how careful you are sometimes. This is NOT your fault, and don't let H make you think it is. He may not be able to support you right now, but we WILL support you here on MB. You are not alone, you have good advice and som support. WE CARE. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I know it will be hard because of all the hormones, but do try to step back from it all. You know about plan A? Then do it. Work a good plan A. What your H is going thru is his problem because of his choices. I guess you just have to plan A and not expect a whole lot from him right now. Just take care of those kids and yourself.

You don't need to feel guilty on top of everything else that is going on in your life. Take it as it is. You think H doesn't feel anything for you? WRONG. After all it takes two to tango. And if he didn't feel anything for you he wouldn't have been having SF with you.

WS is getting a huge dose of reality right now, and is in shock, as you are about the new addition in your life. My daughter was a big surprise, and has turned out to be a huge blessing. She was a gift from God, and she is a Christian and a good girl. I know that the Lord gave her to us, and for a good reason.

It might help to get into MC with H if you can. If not, find someone who will accept that you want to save your marriage and help you with your goals.

As I said, you can feel your emotions, just don't react to them, let them wash over you, accept them and let them go when they start to fade. Pray a lot when this happens. It helped me. If you keep practicing this it will get easier with time.

You are in a tough spot. Just be nice to H. Do not LB. He has chosen you and marriage. Focus on this. Focus on being there for kids and H. Once again, find out what your H's EN's are and work on fulfilling them. I found that the more I did this for my H the more he fulfilled my EN's. It did not happen over night, but it can happen.

My prayers and love are going out to you Lisa, that the Lord will get you thru this time. I hope someone who has been thru a similar situation and gotten thru it will post to you.

You are a good gal Lisa, and vent here to get some help. {{{{{{{{HUGS <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> }}}}}}}}

Yes 3, you did get it right. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M

PS. oops, <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" /> I see that you are in MC with your H. Tell counselor in front of H how frightened you are and don't know how to act around him. That might help H understand what you are going thru also.

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LISA, how are you feeling ?? PLEASE check in , I know sometimes it gets crazy and you feel like there is no one who will ever understand , but there are alot of people here who care and can relate ..

HAVE you had a DR. appt. yet ???

This BABY is a gift and a joy , enjoy this pregnancy , don't loose out on that joy that the hole 9 months bring ..

Please check in , don't ever feel that it is doing no good to talk about it cause it does , even if you need to ramble it helps so much .

ARE all the kids there yet for the summer???

DO you have plans for 4th of july ??

Well you are in my thoughts .. I will check in later .

Hi everyone,

Has been a couple of days since I have posted. Basically full blown contact with OW has resumed. H and I have been talking alot but I just cant do it anymore. This situation is becoming too much for me to handle. H told me the one week he did not talk to OW the hurt and pain was unbearable. H now told me he doesnt know how to fix this and he doesnt know how to begin to work on this with me. H has said he has lost feelings for me because of everything that has happened. H said how do I begin to make this up to you. I told him I didnt want he to make it up to me, I just want him to be my Husband and start treating me like his Wife.

As far as this pregnancy goes, yes it is also devastating to me also. Yes 3, OW knows about this baby and is very upset. Imagine that she is UPSET. All I know is that she is the most sick, pathetic individual with no life. How can she kiss her son goodnight knowing she is destroying the lives of 5 children and knowing I am pregnant. Oh I forget she only has her son a few nites a week, the other nites she is busy wrapping her c$$t around a pole. Yes 3, H has said to me he loves her, I have know this for about 4 months now. Right now, I have said to H, I have nothing more to say to him regarding our M while he is still talking and seeing her. I very calmly told him he has until Sept 1st to find a place to live and that I was very angry at him.

H told me he is having trouble knowing how he hurt everyone involved. I said that is understandable, but you have the opportunity to make things right and he still cant do that. I also told him what he has done in past doesnt define him as a person, but how he handles the situation now will definitely define his character. He has relized what he is doing is wrong, but continuies to do so. Therefore I feel as though I have no choice but to set a deadline to him.

I am just going to continue to go about my life and take care of my kids and if he wants to join that is fine. I am done looking like the desperate betrayed spouse. Any thought from anyone!!

L

Lisa--
the only thought I have is why are you letting him stay until Sept 1? Why not tell him to leave now? If he is continuing contact w/ OW, then you need to go into plan B ASAP! Letting him stay until Sept 1 is like enabling him to be a cake eater, fence sitter, or have the best of both worlds. Plan B will let him see what he is missing--you and the other children you already have as well as the development of this surprise package that God is sending you.

((HUGS)) to you during this time.

Lisa, I can't even begin to imagine the pain you must be in! I can't imagine going through this hell and being pregnant!

Does anyone in either of your families or circle of close friends know what is going on? Are any of them able to talk to your H?

I can't remember..have you ever confronted the OW? That's not for everyone...but it worked wonders for our situation...I made her feel very guilty and scared. I may get bashed for this but I promised to ruin her life if she didn't stay away...told her I'd send an email to our whole neighborhood, talk to her family, etc. She knew me well enough to know I meant every word. She now avoids us like the plague.

In the first few months past dday, I looked at this as the single biggest threat of my life and I made up my mind to fight like I've never fought for anything before (that's saying alot I grew up in a terrible environment). I used everything I could with OW, her H, I talked to her mom....as well as pulled out all guns with my H. My mom talked to him, one of our best friends talked to him, his mom talked to him, his kids did. He wasn't able to hide behind anything. I think in the drug addiction world they refer to this as an intervention.

I won the fight but at the end I collapsed from exhaustion and had a breakdown, almost had to be hospitalized. My H took over like a champ.

Of course we also counseled with SH, did IC, MC and read the books and both read and posted here under the "in recovery" board. This may not have been possible without the intervention type stuff above.

Basically, I did whatever I had to wake him up from the fog, sometimes I screamed, threatened, begged, was his best friend, I didn't shield him from anything...we were in this together. Our IC said my intincts were right on...allowing cake eating usually leads to disaster. When I told him what I'd do if he saw her again...I meant it and he knew it...he knows when I make up my mind to do something I do it.

He also knows how close I came to killing myself a couple of times...he saw how his strong, beautiful, confident wife...disolved right around him...one of the things that helped snap him out of it was the realization that he was breaking my spirit..which is one of the things he loved and admired about me for over 20 years. (our problems weren't OW still being in picture it was about him not telling me the whole truth). Other thing that really got to him was effect this was having on his kids. He loves his kids, they mean the world to him...he didn't want to give them this kind of example to grow up with.

Even though he felt hopeless at times, he knew he had to keep fighting to own up to what he'd done and to fix it.

If you think it would help...I believe my H would be willing to email your H privately...let me know.

Hang in there...your kids need you! How old are your kids? Are all 5 of them your kids together? We have 5 kids but 4 are adopted.

Forever,

I am just really at a lost right now. I have conforted the OW on the phone on two different occasions. She threatened me with restraining orders. I said thats funny you are the one f@#$king my H. I feel very broken right now. Our families know what is going on with the exception of the pregnancy. I dont want anybody to know--my choice right now. I feel it my just send my parents over the edge.

Our kids ages are 13,10,6,3,and almost 2. The oldest is mine from my 1st marrige, the next two are his from a previous relationship and the two little ones are ours.

I guess you know from my last post, that basically I am detaching myself from him now. It is just too painful for me to continue this way. The only reasons why I have set a Sept 1st deadline are as follows: We are starting to see our way clear of some very severe financial problems and this way I still have control over this. Secondly, his children are spending half the summer with us and I dont want to ruin this. I love these kids as if they are my own. I also feel as though if H sees all of us together as a family he may begin to see things different.

Dont get me wrong I am not giving up on this M, I am choosing not live like this anymore. Its pretty funny, Forever, H has started to read SAA the past couple of days. The book has been sitting on his nitestand since Feb. Well I hope it helps.

Its my B-Day on Sat. and I am so not looking forward to it. I am in the darkest place right now. I have never felt like this before ever.

L

((((((HUGS)))))))

WOW , I just finished reading and cried , screamed ...AND

I DO KNOW EXACTLY HOW THAT CONVO WENT AND FELT FOR YOU !!!(EXCEPT PREGNANCE PART)

LISA , I have been through those convos before , saying those same things . HEARING thoses same words from H ..

Contact slows , they say all the right thing give you hope that it is on the right track and BAM ,, here it goes again ..

OK JMVHO ,, I am being completely honest here ..

I do know why you are holding out dead line till SEPT. 1 - bracause his kids are coming for the summer (right)?

OK I see your reasons and if thats what you set your mind to then fine ..

I know you want your M back and are willing to do the work and for the most part up for the fight of it ..

YOUR pregnacy must come first ..YOU are a good women and an adult and mature ,, THIS is what seperates you from him and OW right now ..

THEY are inmature and are running from reality of life ,,, well never fear it WILL catch up to him ..

GET this PLAN of yours down pat now ,,

I have a suggestion for you this is again my JMVHO

PACK up for a day or 2 no more then that cause I know you won't want to leave ,,but go either with or without your kids to your parents to think and get leave headed about a PLAN of action ..

IF your leaving this till SEPT. 1 do NOT BEND on that and now you need to know how to live in that house with him till then ..

READ about the DB180 , and get your self very fimalar with PLAN B .

GO on living your life right around him , IF ow knows all about you then use this to your advantage . IF he takes a call around you let your voice be heard , let the kids be heard in the backround . MAKE sure he does what he has to do around the house , cleaning yard , be with kids and anything else .. then if he wonders off to see OW it will have to be when he finishs his responsablity around there ..

DO not wait up for him , when he goes out, do not wait for him when making plans with kids to do something ,, tell him things only once never remind him ,,, he has to rember himself .

ALSO consider what FOREVER said, but I do know with you being pregnant the added stress would not be good .. JUST concider all your options ..

AND please if you can't do this till SEPT DON"T !!!

DO NOT drain all your energy ,, HE is in FOG and he is a coward . HE does know what he has to do to make a start to work on M ,,, and its N/C .

BUT for as long as he can get away with being a coward he will ..

BELIVE me this will make him very tired ,, he will crash ,,, BUT you must help your self to stay strong for that time ..

HE has the answer in front of him ,, you can't do it for him and it must be his OWN choice to do what he wants ..

I know I did this with ws home ,, but under no uncertain terms would I tell you that is healthy or easy or that PLAN B probbly would not be a BETTER option for you ..

BUT if you choice to let him stay then ,, you must dismiss yourself from their A !!!!

AND yes OW is an [censored] ,, but that is for your WS to discover on his own and for her seeing it well don't put all your eggs in one basket !!

OW is a selfish person and a sorry excuse for a human being ..

I am sorry if any get offended by anything I said, .

PLEASE listen about PLAN B I told you I did throw him out the 1st time and it did snap him into reality ..

ANOTHER word of advice ,, HIS ACTIONS MUST MATCH HIS WORDS !!

I am here for you to talk ,continue to vent here
and lean on family and friends right now it is so important that you have all the support that you need and if you can give him a pillow and ask him to find some where else to sleep in the house .

WELL got to go and please take care of you !!

Lisa,

{{{{{{{{HUUUUGS!}}}}}}}}

Please try your best to remove yourself emotionally from all that is going on. Try to focus on the positive. Your H is reading the book that is pretty positive.

You have his kids half the summer? This is very important as you have worked very hard to have this happen. You are such a great person to love WS kids as your own. Very important for kids. They never ask for any of this, do they. Glad you are thinking of them. But it does make the situation tougher for you.

I just want to wish you a happy birthday and send you a big hug and kiss on the cheek! Just know that we who are posting you care about your BD and remember that on your birthday. I am working this holiday but will check in to see how you are. Please let us know.

Sweetie, just try to get on with your everyday things and step back from WS A and problems. Very important to your recovery.

The good thing is is that WS is remorseful and knows how much he is hurting all. WS is very much in the fog right now, so distance yourself from fogspeak, and maybe give some of it back to him. (Ask Orchid about that, or check some of her posts.)

Your priority is to take care of you, baby, family. I know it is hard. I don't remember, but you have been in plan A haven't you? Remember you have been making an effort.

And forget about ow being upset. So what? Does she care about you or family? So just forget about ow, don't get involved with ow. Avoid her and discussing her with WS. Not healthy for you right now. You are reeling with all the recent events and need to step back and get yourself grounded. Which I am sure you are doing.

Listen up. You are WORTHY. When you start having all those bad thoughts and losing control emotionally say to yourself: Stop the bad. I am worthy, I AM WORTHY. And you are. You are wonderful and are doing great. Be your sweet self.
Step back and observe how you feel. Don't react. Then think about what the healthiest thing is to do for you, kids, etc.then do it. It gets easier with practice and time.

Wishing you a good holiday, and pat yourself on the back for being such a good mom, and a good person.

Praying for you Lisa!!!
Keep in touch, we care.

Love in Christ,
Miss M

ps. You need to keep the drama factor down. You pray for a clear, calm mind, and if you feel telling parents about pregnancy would spike the drama factor, don't do it. You need all the calm and peace you can get right now, so do what you think is best to get as much calm as you can. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I was posting at same time ,, sorry .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance !!!!!!

IT is great that he is reading ,, and that you are seeing your way clear alittle finacialy ..

I undersatand your dead line , like I said, before and in other posts to you ,, it is a good thing to spend the summer as a family it may just help him to see some light ..

TAKE MM advice and stay out of the DRAMA that there A brings ,, let it be theres ..

LIVING in it and removeing yourself from it is hard but can be done ..

WHEN it gets hard grab one of the kids and talk to then ,, the funny things they say has an affect to really cheer you up ..

IT also has a way of keeping you grounded ,, to know that you are loved and have alot in your life and that YOU are WORTHY of all the GOOD lofe has to offer ..

KICK back and enjoy a BBQ or fun in the pool or water ballons with kids watch the fire works and take a breath ..

PLACE your hand on your stomach and know that GOD has sent you a GIFT ,,

I don't want to get all mushy on you LOL ,,

BUT I reflected so much on the loosing both my parents through this hole ordeal that now I am really truely learning that life is way to short not to love my family and enjoy the tine I have with them ..

YOUR M is important ,, but YOU <<<YOU are more important ,,your health and living life ..

YOUR personal recovery from this will be the most important part of this hole thing ..

REMOVE yourself not through anger but for happiness within you ..

3 and Miss M,

Thank you for the incredible posts..you dont know what they mean to me. I am doing okay today. I went to the Drs. for the baby and everything is fine so far. I am still losing weight though, and Dr. is stressing to take better care of myself right now. I told him I would try my hardest.

H had to work and couldnt go to Dr. with me. Actually at this point I didnt want him there. H did get very upset when I got ready to leave for appt. H started to cry a little bit. I think he is realizing I meant the deadline and am starting to detach myself from him. He definitely responds better to me when I dont look like the desperate BS. I guess I am still Plan A'ing in a sense with Plan B on the horizon. 3 believe me, my children all of them are the only thing that keeps me going right now. They have gotten so many hugs and kisses from their mommy of late.

H, I and the kids may go to the shore tomorrow. We will see how the day pans out. Never know what is going to happen. Well I will talk to you guys later.

Have a great Holiday Weekend!! 3 relax you and H will get thru this holiday just fine..praying for you. Miss M, dont work to hard and I look forward to your posts..Thanks guys

L

Lisa,

If you read this post before 4th of July, please listen.

If you and H go to have a nice time, please plan A. Fulfill those needs of WS. NO relationship talk. No ow talk. Just plan A, meet those En's of H. Just try to have a wonderful day full of good memories.

Sounds like WS is having a lot of guilt and remorse right now. Don't play on that. Just be your very sweet self, which we know you are, forget it all and have a nice day for you and the baby.

Sending you love and prayers. You ARE worthy. Be the wonderful woman that you are. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M