Thanks NL, you got it right, he is keeping me just in case, he really is unsure of the A,esp. with someone as flirty as OW,she goes where she goesa dn he only wonders where and who she is with when he is not with her,he can not deny that insecurity he gets from her even if they live together, he knows, the whole problem is he knows what is wrong but unwilling to come home, not till OW throws him high and dry..I am really his safety neta nd he says that I am playing victim.
I left him a v/m today about his email and never called me at work ever,he said before that he wanted to broadcast his A to my work..imagine that
I do not tell anyone at work it is indeed none of their business plus they are unable to help me w/ my M, plus I am usually very careful about how people judge me/us or any unnecessary gossips, people can't understand unless they experience such. I am usually reserved about not-so-good news. But here in MB, I can be open about all that I have encountered and no one will judge, right, we are all in the same boat,wanting the M to work,BS or WS...I had also cancelled my cell.
I will only live for me and take care of me. You were a WS, and you know why and how tempted it could be with OP, but unreal..Blah ever said to OW that she is the joke when they broke off. Whatever it is they should not be on my list or mind anymore...I already take it as Blah is gone, he will never come home..this is my feelings, strong one too. Thanks NL, you keep me positive.
Wangi.

NL,In case you wonder, I am doing ok, work keeps me busy and content,so that is a good thing since DDay, this is my BEST thing in life, no family here,lots of friends who love and care but not everybody knows his A,too ashame of it and others trust(ed)he is a good honest husband., gone gone gone gone. I sent an email to your yahoo address, did you receive it? I won't post on MB as much because I do not want him to read as it gets into a level that legal issues will be involved.

NL keep up the good work on NC and remember home is where your heart is, there is no home w/o YOU.

Take care,NL. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Hi Wangi-

No, I didn't receive your email. Did you send it to tkpnc@yahoo.com?
I'm glad to hear that you're doing ok. I hope that you're able to start seeing a future for yourself that will be happy even though H may not be in it. It helps to have friends who are supportive and can provide a shoulder to cry on, should you need one. I find that my hardest time is when I have nothing to do and am not busy. I have a really hard time controlling my thoughts then. NC is going well but it's the weekend again and of course that makes it harder for me because there's more down time. I really hope that all is well with you and know that this will eventually get easier. You must remove yourself from Blah's life and realize that if he really wanted the M that he would be working hard for it. Instead he is threatening you and using all kinds of cheap tricks to manipulate you. Don't let him do this, get out of his sick world and do what's right and good to you.
Take care, life will look brighter with each passing day.
NL

Hey NL(new lady) just wanted to say that your doing a great job not only in your own marriage but also by helping wangi out with her situation. This just adds to my beleif that FWS, like yourself, are very instrumental in helping BS's deal with their ordeal (hey I made a rhyme) even if they are not those BS's WS.

In case I don't get a chance to reply later on, have a great weekend (jump your hubbies bones if you have to <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> ).

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TMCM-

Thank you for the kind words. I liked the "new lady" comment, that made me smile. Thanks for putting a smile on my face. I hope that you have a wonderful weekend as well and I will take your advice on "jumping my H's bones". <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Take care TMCM,
NL

NL, Thanks...yes, I sent to tkpnc@yahoo.com..it was something frustrated that I thought I could put in words in an email instead of MB where he is probably reading(why?!) The threats were bad and I really do not want to have anything to do with him now...perhaps ever. I feel totally betrayed and put through all unnecessary grieves, can not even tell you how much more THESE grieves are compare to my XH's abuse,in many ways, I feel as if I am numb already,they will pay their prices
somehow..by hurting not just me but many. I feel good that I cut my hair, and I am not the long-haired exotic woman w/ an accent whom he feel in love with and then betrayed brutally; I am a short hair survivor <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> Up to this moment I can not believe the man I married to can be this brutal, and how powerful can an A destroys any family and yet NOT SEEING the "effect"...I am very proud of you, weekends can be downtime,but you know what you are doing today,as hard as it could be,it is not only the right thing to do but also its reward will be worthwhile. Who else can you trust if not your own family,my WH chose to trust other over me and all(families, school and a family life)he has had,his choice,blinded..
You ARE doing an amzing job here,only if I wish my WH could be like any "F"WS..he is not coming home, he won't, and I don't want to bother,but to love me myself....NL, have a great weekend. If you can give me another email address or write me wangiaja@yahoo.com. OK. Thanks for all your supports. I need them.