...and I'll cry if I want to....Well, cry I have and am. Today is my 3rd Anniversary and my attorney is filing a Petition for Dissolution of Marriage today - ironic, huh? STBXH won't even give reconciling our marriage a thought. OW must really be something - guess he doesn't give any credence to the old addage "if you'll do it with me, you'll do it to me."

Last night, I got out our wedding album and had a good look at the pictures. The love on our faces in those pictures is almost touchable. I still remember every detail as if it happened yesterday. I cried and cried and cried. Cried even harder when DS looked at a picture of STBXH, said "Dada" and kissed it. Looked at my wedding gown, which is still hanging in the closet of our guest bedroom - funny, only recently, STBXH told me what a pretty bride I was. am so very very very sad - technically, I am still a newlywed and, now, a petitioner in a divorce proceeding.

To add insult to injury, the brakes went on my car, so it is in the shop - needs new brakes, oil change, new tires and rear tail light replaced. Just add it to the money pit....

I want so much to have the opportunity to work on our marriage without OW around but that is not an option at this time because STBXH wants no parts of cutting off contact and moving away from OW. All STBXH would have to do is say the word and I would be ready....fat chance, I guess.

Took the day off of work so that I could implode....but first I'm getting my hair done to help make me feel better after I have imploded.

Sorry...just needed to vent....I am so so sad.

Regards,

Brit's Brat - BS-42
STBXH - 44
DS - 20 months
Status: Filing for Divorce 7-8-03 on 3rd Anniversary of Marriage

Hey Brit Brat,
I see exactly where you're coming from.... such a shame, such a stupidity, but you know what: dont look at your husband on wedding day, look at your husband now: do you want to continue to be married to an alcoholic who keeps on betraying you, his child and gives a toss about it all? Probably not.
Take care,
N

You know there is no rhyme nor reason. You know there is no understanding of this situation. You know it hurts terribly, and then tomorrow you will feel stronger and better.

There is no way to explain or understand the logic of someone like your WS. Does that make it easier? Of course not!!!!!!! Try and swing throw lows as you gain strength from the highs, and realise that it will get better, easier one day.

However, please do not entertain your WS - you know what I mean...... You are better and it sits easier when he is not upsetting you or in touch. His behaviour is unbelievable and bizare.

Thinking of you.

Lisa

Take care of you and your baby. Let us know if you want to meet sometimes in the north hou area.

Hugs, H

I don't know what to say other than I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Honey is right, be sure to take care of yourself.

BB,
I can feel your pain, it's almost palpable, and I'm so sorry to see a friend going through this. No words of wisdom toady, just a hug and a reminder that we're here whenever you need us.

All my love,
SC

BB:

Me 2!

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-ol' 2long

How are you BB?
-Have some fun/ or even pampering/relaxing... of some sort this weekend. Be happy you have your sweet baby with you.. enjoy him.

Honey