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I am here buddy, here...
Thanks for checking up on me. I appreciate it very much.
Not much excitement to talk about. WW and OM moved into an apartment. My sweet D is with them every second week. I am selling the house. Finances are separated. Looking for a place for myself. I can truly say that I let go, but think about "it" all the time... Well, you know the drill..
I have told my D to adjust to the situation but she is still hoping that mom will come home "before Christmas".
I am dedicating my free time to various activities with D when she is with me and spend a lot of time doing what I enjoy most - football (soccer). Our team won the championship. I was named the "fastest player in the league". That's not bad when you're 40 and you compete in a league that allows 19 year olds.
Saw WW in a meeting with the mediator. At the first opportunity she started the blame game again with no response from me. I think she was stunned by my calm reaction.
The next day, we met at the "drop off" at my daughter's football team "get together for the last time this season with food and a game" thing. She was totally out of place as I was the most recognized parent out there. Nobody noticed her. She was sooooo out of place. My D was delighted to see me and jumped in my arms as soon as she saw me. We kicked the ball around and WW was left on the side faking happiness. She left not saying a thing even to our D. I sensed that she wanted to say something to me, but I may be wrong as she never did...
According to the script, she is supposed to feel pain, despair, fog lifting, etc... None of those are present so far. Although, it's been only two weeks since they moved in together. I am not expecting much though. My activities bring me more satisfaction than obsession about WW.
I have a tournament tomorrow, and I intend to contribute a lot with all that speed in my legs that the Almighty gave me. That's all I obsess about right now...
Work is going OK, but the contract will end soon, so I am looking for a job right now, just to be prepared.
In short, I am far from happy, but getting there one step at a time no mater what...
Thanks again for asking,
BigStar
P.S.
my email is nick123@5united.com
I am in computers you know, I created one just for you...
