I AM SO DONE WITH HIM, I WANT TO SCREAM, HE NEEDS TIME HE NEEDs THIS HE WANTS THIS I'VE DONE THIS ALL THE BULLSH#IT I'VE PULLED OUT OF MY A@#. HE DOES NOTHING WRONG, HE IS SICK OF ALL MY LIES, ETC ETC ETC
What I wouldn't give to be perfect like him, he can go have an A, he can leave every night after seeing the baby, I need to stop hounding him, I need to leave him alone (his quotes) he doesn't know how he feels and he doesn't know what he wants AND I CAN'T TAKE THIS CRAP ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Patience has never been my strong point, but I hate him right now, I hate how he leaves, I hate how he comes by, I hate how he is cold and distant, I hate how he says about the affair he is not sorry he had one BUT sorry he hurt my feelings...what does it matter anymore.
I should leave his a@@ at the doorstep he can rot in hell for all I care now...he is leaving his wife, his home, his daughter and his wife that is pregnant with his child. I hope to God I have a girl, I don't want to bring another man in this world that is remotely like him.
I want to hurt him, I want him to cry every night like I do, I want him to wake up every hour at night like I do, I want him to be lonely and sorry and miserable like I am...He told me he has been honest with me, too honest he said, what the hell is that supposed to mean! Am am his wife for crying out loud!!!!!!!!
He doesn't care about anything but his stupid self, his working out, his career, his damn car, him him him him him him him....
When do I get in the freakin picture? When he is ready? Doesn't he understand that I am human too and I have emotions and feelings and I can't take living like this anymore!!!!
It kills me not to talk to him, even if it hounding, he tells me nothing, he acts like I am a stranger and looks at me with complete and total disgust on his face.
I repluse him and disgust him and disappoint him, what does he think he is - some superhero!