Orchid,<P>I haven't heard from you in a few days, and was just wondering if you're okay? I know things were bad last week. Please let me know how you are.<P>Love ya,<BR>TIG

Hi Tig, <P>Thanks for asking. Well it has gone from bad to worse. Went to the counselor's twice, Friday and today. H is in the process of moving out. I see it as the last time. NO more...... Will post more later. <P>L.<BR>

Sorry to hear that Orchid,<P> I know you had said this was a possibility. I had hoped that things were going to get better for you. <P> jd

Oh, I'm so sorry! I know you must be devastated. Please come here and talk to us if you need to. We all need to stick together!<P>Love you!<BR>TIG

Orchid, Maintain faith. He's still waffling, I'm certain. <P>We care and are praying for you and your H.

Oh, Orchid....I am soooo sorry to hear this, also.<P>Just let any of us know what we can do....I am doing all I know that will change things, and that is pray. I am praying now for your situation.<P>I pray Terrified is right, he's still just waffling and confused. <P>Love,<BR>Lupo<P>

Orchid,<BR>I am so sorry to hear all of this. I could only wish that your H would see the light, and try and repair the relationship. I am truly sorry this is playing out this way. Prayers are with you, aftershock

Good morning,<P>Time does heal all wounds. I am feeling stronger today. Still hard but better. Thanks to the concern of all you here. I really appreciate it. <P>What is H doing now? Who knows. Funny thing happened. I came to work and my cell phone starts talking???!??!? The voice says (H's voice), "I tried calling you at work and couldn't get through so I am calling you on your cell. I am trying L. to get away. Really trying...." <P>Ok, this is as I am walking into my office. Shocked? Yes. H's clothes are in the garage...... he slept with her last night. I told him not to come back home...... Is sleeping with her that bad? HM.......<P>So I call H and ask: "did you just leave me a message on my cell?" H says no.... I say, ok and hang up. I check my phone. Now my phone is the kind that when the lid is closed, nothing happens the phone is shut off. The lid was closed and what happened is that an old message from the beginning of August was playing???? Weird or what? <P>Hey, never a dull moment here. This gets better. H calls back baffled. Me too.... Now he wants to 'make sure it is over'. I say yes, it is not up to me. I can not try anymore. I have done all I can. <P>Now he wants to come back for his family. AGAIN?!??!!? I say, I heard this before and do not wish to replay this month's episode again. He says he understands and wants to do whatever it takes. Right!!!! I have heard that before also. I say, maybe he needs a break from everyone and needs to go and stay with his mom (very hard for him to do - but understandably so - mom is difficult to live with - she is getting better but very much like H.....Hmmmm....). H says, is this a test? I say, no but then again, life is a test so I guess like that. This time he does not balk. We talk about him moving his things out today. I have given him free reign of the house so he can get everything. He says, he does not want to move out today. He will do the yard and call me back. <P>Ok, next chapter. I still feel the same. I am not ready to give my all at this point. I am stepping back. <BR>I want off the fence (that lighthouse wrote about). <P>Solid ground under my feet, I feel better now. More stable Not sure where I am going to live in a couple of months but I know I will live somewhere and it will be ok. <P>Thanks again,..... unfortunately the saga continues. Feel like this is Star Wars and Darth Vadar is the OW. YUCK!!!<BR>Where is Hans Solo when you need him?!?!?! Oh yea, he stepped out on his W also. Guess some of the good looking actors mess up also. <P>L.<BR>