No absolutely I understand that. I know he doesn't experience this type of loss. And the only reason I have that feeling is by way of thinking that the OC may live with us and I just can't help thinking that I could have better bonded with her as an infant. It is easier to love a child from infancy, to me. I struggled for years to love and accept my step son (from age 5) and he wasn't even an affair child...

The POJA does not and should not apply to things that are destructive to your marriage. Just so you know. Please tell your husband the truth immediately and stop this train before you make a mistake that cannot be undone. Some temporary conflict with your husband is better than a LIFETIME of conflict.

Please suck it up, my friend, and go in and tell him what you told us and stop this train.

This doesn't explain why you first came here speaking about resentment, and strongly doubting that you could ever be in enthusiastic agreement to taking in this child, and feeling pressured into doing the right thing and not disappointing your husband, and then suddenly flipping to challenging us about Dr Harley's advice to stay NC.

What's really going on here?

I'm not sure I should have posted here. I didn't read the rules apparently. Admin - delete this thread please? I've gotten all the advice I need I believe.

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Radio Show of shocked11
Segment #2

I was in quite the pickle at 34 feeling like a romantic disaster, searching for a little meaning in my life, and of course, my long lost Prince Charming. My heart belonged to my childhood sweetheart, I tried everything to get him out of my head, but the more I fought it, the more I felt like I was in a rom-com gone wrong. So, I decided to seek for help because I wanted to feel like a proper woman again, not just a “lost cause” wandering through life.

I reached out for both psychological and spiritual help, that’s when I met a rather unexpected advisor (a quirky friend who tells it like it is). He dissected my romantic history like a surgeon and revealed that my destiny was tied to my childhood love (I never mentioned him to anyone, but somehow, this spiritualist knew) He assured me my ex felt the same way, and that I was the key to helping him find his path again. Now, keep in mind, my ex and I hadn’t spoken in over 18 years. I had no clue if he was even alive, let alone what he looked like. But I believed the advice I received and let him cast a goodwill love spell. I was told I’d hear from him within 48 hours.

Well, 48 hours came and went, and I was a bundle of nerves, I wrote back for clarification, and guess what? My advisor chuckled and told me to check my messages. Lo and behold, there was a text from my ex 😳turns out he’d been trying to reach me but couldn’t for some bizarre reason. He got my number from my cousin at a local restaurant (thank you, spaghetti and meatballs 😜). The conversation flowed as if no time had passed at all. It felt like my heart had been waiting for this moment forever. Fast forward to now 30th of this month marks our one year reunion anniversary.

So, if you’re in a similar boat feeling lost, longing for a past love, or just trying to restore your relationship reach out to omegalovetemple@gmail.com I can’t thank Omega enough for helping me rediscover my happiness. Trust me, your Prince Charming might just be waiting for you too. Don’t remain single for the rest of your life.