Thank you for all of your honest opinions on whether I should be here or not. It was comforting to know that there is support and encouragement out there (even from the replies that hinted that I leave asap). Unfortunately it is unfair for me to seek help here. The simple fact at hand is that being here is contact. For him and me. Even if we agreed not to read each others postings (one suggestion)...it would be hard to just see the Username.<BR>This will be my last post. Before I go - I want to ask all of you to stick by 2S and nikba. Keep giving them your replies of support because I know that they value it very much. I care for them and their marriage (if you truly knew the person that I am - you'd know that I am genuine in saying that).<BR>As for me and my husband - we will get help. I have written down some of your suggestions on where to get that help so thank you. If you have any others - please reply. <P>Maya - thanks for your address. Don't be surprised to hear from me one day.<P>As for being in this forum: For one whole day (today) - I felt like I was not alone in this world with the situation that I am in. I hope to feel that again very soon.<P>a-amla-c<BR> <BR>