It is very painful to rewrite this, but I think it is important to tell you how we started. I took it all VERY seriously:<P>We find ourselves together<BR>separted by our pasts<BR>growing together today<BR>and staying together, in our hearts, forever<P>The feeling grow<BR>they grow uneasy<BR>at the bottom we know it's right<P>the feelings are new<BR>unlike any others<BR>I want to allow them to live<BR>the everything would change.<P>What good or bad<BR>what's right and what's wrong I hope we will <BR>someday understand<BR>when we do understand, we will grow again<P>How we will grow is unknown<BR>we will have to wait and see.<BR>I want to live this with you. I need you<P>I needed you<BR>you needed me<BR>That circle closed<BR>Where will the next circle lead?<BR>Where will the next meeting find us?<P>I can't be with you<BR>The feeling consumes me!<BR>I'm going crazy!<BR>It will be O.K.<BR>This is so new, so magical,<P>I must keep this in,<BR>There is no choice<BR>To release it would cause pain to spread<P>The feelings of others weigh heavy on my thoughts, they can not suppress my desires, only expose them.<P>I need to say so many things, but how and when, I long for you to express yourself to me<BR>We need time<BR>Time we can't have<P>The past and present are colliding<BR>so many pieces<BR>we can put them together.<P>Trying to hold it all together<BR>and not lose what really matters<BR>Trying to figure out what that really is.<P>Through this we will grow<BR>we are in different places<BR>looking for direction, looking for affection.<P>I care for you<BR>I want to be with you<BR>How did we get here<BR>I'm not sure but I'm glad<P>We find ourselves together.<P>Ok guys, this is how my husband started our relationship. It has all gone to H*** in the last year< I would say. Some feedback please and please read my profile in order to help you understand this man.<BR>I'm not sure who my enemy is!!!<P>

I think that he meant it. <P>I am not sure what you want to now know. Have you read the website? Have you read Dr. Harley's book? Has he said why he's having the affiar? Has he admitted it? <P>Are you in Plan A or Plan B? <P>You can e-mail me at joes@plastomer.com. Read my post today (JoeJohn) and my profile. <P>The Lord is with you, and he loves you. We, the people on theses posts, are here for you. You are not alone!<P>Joe

ceverson1- Once again, I think you are obsessing with this too much. Last week I said I would find something else to dwell on and you agreed with me. Maybe it's time to make yourself a to-do list of things. Anything other than thinking about him right now, and letting yourself heal YOU. You are important right now, not where his head is. You need to be good to yourself! God Bless!<P>------------------<BR>Chick's <BR>Bren<P>You won't see things until your ready to not be blind!<P>