ok, here's the story in short. i started dating a friend of mine 4 1/2 years ago. at first, we got along great. we did everything together, i watched her draw. stuff like that. i fell in love with her. we moved to nevada from detroit, and fought a few times. she couldnt work there because she was only 20, so she came back home. i saved enough and came back also. as time went on, we became less and less happy. i never gave her the attention she wanted, and she seemed to always complain about everything. so we broke up. i had sex with her best friend. a few weeks later, we got back together and moved into a house. things were great for a couple months, then i had sex with her worst enemy. she found out about that one, and moved out. after about a month, we started dating again, and of course everything was fine. then i had sex with her best friend again. she still didnt know about her. we broke up again a couple more times untill this summer. she had been complaining so bad that i was beeing very rude on the phone. she was upset because i called her new best friend to see what she was doing. so i blew up on her. after a few days of not talking, she called me up because we had "something" to talk about. i knew what it was. when i got there, i played the hot shot. acted like i didnt care (and i dont think i did at the moment) and she finally broke up with me. i guess thats what i wanted at the time. i started dating this girl i cant stand, never thinking about the ex, untill one night. she came over a friends house with another guy. it had been 2 months since we talked, so we sat down for a while. i told her how sorry i was for all that i did, and told her the truth about the first friend. then she leaned over and kissed me. twice. we talked for about an hour while her new boyfriend was out on the porch. then she got up to leave, i walked her to the door and she kissed me goodbye. then got in her boyfriends truck and made out with him for about 15 minutes. (she is not a slut if thats what you are thinking. she is very faithfull). i really didnt know that he was her boyfriend, and called her a couple days later. we went to the pool hall and played some pool. later we went to her sister's house and i slept on the floor. the next day when i asked her if she wanted to do something with me, she informed me about her boyfriend. she told me that he listens to her, and makes her feel beutifull. all the things i want to do, but had lost intrest in doing. my heart sunk. i almost vomited. i know its hypocritical, but i cant stand the thought of another guy with my girl. then she called me up last weekend to see if i wanted to hang out with some mutual friends. i agreed and the night was great untill she said " this is taking too long, i have things to do." again, i was devistated. i cried myself to sleep that night. the next day, we hung out all day long. we bbq'ed at her sister's house and had a couple drinks at her house. around 9:30pm i left because i could sence that she was gonna go somewhere. on my way home, she called and said that "he" was gonna come over, but decided not to. and that she wished she had known that, because she would have had me stay the night. but i had things to do in the morning, so i didnt go back. its an hour drive. we small talked yesterday, and she said she would call me when she left his house. but she didnt call. needless to say, i havent ate, slept or smiled much in the last couple weeks. i know this isnt the best description of whats goin on, but i have no idea how to feel or react. i dont know if i should be near her whenever possible so i can restore love units, or if its a waste of time.<BR>plz help
