MY ANGRY MIND...<BR>By Jennifer L Carroll <BR>When I get angry<BR>I lose my mind<BR>I tend to throw<BR>Anything I find<BR>To hurt the one<BR>I love the most<BR>When all I want<BR>Is just to be close<BR>I can't control<BR>The way I am<BR>No matter how<BR>I try not to slam<BR>Myself to the ground<BR>Inside my grave<BR>To hurt myself<BR>In any way<BR>To try not to think<BR>About the past<BR>Because here I am<BR>Alone at last<BR>Why can't it leave me<BR>Out the door<BR>About the people<BR>That hurt me before<BR>I do forgive them<BR>In every way<BR>I don't want to think<BR>About it everyday<BR>Because now I am<BR>I love with one<BR>And I don't want to hurt him<BR>With my angry mind<P><P>------------------<BR>kuddles4me

I can relate, you really hit it on the head.

I write from the heart, what I feel comes out like magic on paper. Good or bad, it will say it purely. I try forgetting about troubled times and put forth effort in concentrating on today but sometimes it don’t manage that way and I tend to procure my frustrations out on my husband and none of which he is connected with. But I know it is not fair to him, and I know I distress him, but how can I forget? Why do I hurt him? Because I know he loves me and he understands about my feelings. But I am so scared that one day I may just push him right out the door and I love him so much to lose him. It is awful to think of how we treat the people we love badly. We tend to believe they will never leave us. I try so hard at times not to be inferior but it is like there is something inside of me trying to escape and I am watching from a distance unable to speak or to do a thing. I am much better in controlling my anger today then I was years ago I believe it is because I took up poetry writing. It really helps cleanse the soul. <P>------------------<BR>

Thank you for taking the time to read my poem. <P>------------------<BR>kuddles4me<BR>

I believe many people go through what you are describing at one point or another in their marriage. I had a very bad temper when I was first married, but I found the Lord (was reborn) and since then, God has been healing that anger within me. I used to be so mean to my husband and mother-in-law, and I never knew where it came from. But now, when I feel that I'm going to say something mean, I hear the Lord speak to me, telling me to watch my tongue. (Sometimes, I choose not to listen!) Remember, it is God who gave you the talent to write...and you do write very eloquently! So, through God, you are able to "heal" yourself. Give thanks to Him today! I know this, because I too write poems much like yours! Keep up the good work, and God Bless!