These poems have brought tears to my eyes<P>The pain we all share, won't let us tell lies<P>I will go on till all poems are read<P>I know in my heart my wifes love for me is dead<P>And when I am done all of them through<P>I feel I will make it, because of all of you<P>To be perfectly honest I have no idea if I will make it. To read this forum has somwhat of a healing benefit. If nothing more than to know there are others who feel exactly like I do. I never knew there could be so much pain in this world. Let alone my own life. I will browse this forum for awhile and pray that it helps the healing process of losing something that I did not realize I had so much of. Love for my wife of 19 years. <P>Anyone want to email me please do so at;<P>jdmac1@yahoo.com<P>How much easier would it be to hate the one who is for lack of a better term "killing" our very soul?

There is no easy way-and if you find one, let me know!<P>My H and I married young and from the day we said our vows, he seemed distant. Like he was doing me a favour and decided to not consummate our marriage for days...<BR>I loved him with all my heart and cried many nights when he refused to hold me or love me. I changed me, lost weight and tried to be whatever he wanted, but that wasn't good enough. I read books, posted here and talked with him endlessly, but he stll maintains a wall. Everyone here thinks I have not been consistent or patient enough with him and he may be holding himself at arms lenth for a purpose-but I am young and so, so tired...I am lost! I don't know wha to do wit him, he still ignores me and will not express love...I want a marriage..not a casual friendship

Carina- It sounds as if your husband is emotionally or physically involved with someone else and that is why he is not bonding with you. You may be the victim of your husband's extra-marital affair with an old girlfriend or something like that. Probe that line of reasoning, and if you suspect it, then Marriage Builders has a lot of advice and resources for you to benefit from. Right now it sounds as if you do not really know the root of the problem. Try to engage him in expressing his thoughts, his needs, etc. so that you can respond accordingly. Likewise, make sure that he is clear about your needs and wants and that you establish certain accountability from him in meeting them. Otherwise, I'm sorry to say it, you may not have much of a marriage.<BR>You are on the right track by imply being here and asking questions. God bless your marriage as you go forward.