No one can imagine how alone I sometimes feel,
Please somebody tell me I'm dreaming - that none of this is real.<p>I lived a life that isolated me from my desire to be "normal,"
And I'm convinced the rest of my days I'll feel loads of shame and immoral. <p>The reasons I chose to do what I did are too complicated – truly inexplicable,
And I realize that if you haven't lived it, it really is despicable.<p>Because of you, though, my hope, it was renewed,
I felt I could love and be loved by you.<p>What an accomplishment for me to actually give my heart,
Break down the wall, to trust in love and vow "until death do us part."<p>What a blessing you were - an opportunity for me,
To be the person I knew I was meant to be.<p>You found my mind, my heart, and you found my soul,
You brought me back from a dark black hole.<p>You make me feel alive, both spiritually and physically,
I literally MELT in your arms - touch me - I get truly tingly,<p>Amazing, it seems, how suddenly life can change,
All brought about by the turn of a page.<p>Boy, if we could only find a way to turn the page back,
Five, ten, fifteen, twenty years back perhaps.<p>What a shame it is that we're only given one life,
There is no next time to get it right.<p>It's doubly painful when you've felt true happiness,
And then to lose it because of the past.<p>How will you ever be able to feel the same?
How can I ever not feel this shame?<p>I cry and I cry and it only makes it worse,
I think I've managed to become my own biggest curse.<p>"No doubt", I say, "what do you expect?"
"Nothing," I say with real regret.<p>This lifetime is short, sometimes shorter than we expect,
I only hope that we'll have the chance to truly reconnect.<p>I can't imagine life without you, I don't like it when I try,
Please come back to me, let me love you, let me be by your side.<p>I love you now, and I always will,
Even these days it grows stronger still…..
