I'm looking towards the future instead of the past.
Hoping that our love can make it and last.
I don't want to be second place in your heart,
and have other women tear us apart.<p>If you can't refrain, then let me go free.
I need to know that I can be truly me.
I need to know that I can feel safe.
Even though his feeling has alluded me of late.
But with your reassurance, I know we can make it.
I don't want to go on just pretending to fake it.<p>To seem that I’m confident in you when I’m not.
My heart within me is starting to rot.
I need you to explore my feelings with me,
and Validate, validate, validate them with me.<p>You don't have to agree, just help me let them go.
And then understand that your behavior of continuing to
email and talk with other women is a no-no.<p>It is totally unacceptable to me and I will not be made
a fool of, again, you see.
It would not be acceptable to you, so you need to give me the same
consideration that you would want me to give you.
God says the greatest of these commandments is love,
and to love others as you would want them to love you.<p>So you decide how you want me to love you,
based on truth or deception? Which will it be?
You need to start really coming clean with me.
I’ll await your answer, I’m willing to learn,
how we both can nurture each other in turn.<p>I had a great time with you this last week,
and would like to turn it into a decade-streak.
I’m feeling very blue and uncertain today,
I never conceived that I would ever feel this way.<p>The hurt in my heart is sometimes too painful to bear,
I often don’t accomplish much but just sit and stare.
I cant’ pretend the pain is not there,
and your justifications drives me to despair.<p>So tell me, talk to me. Make me aware,
that our communication
and relationship is not just “there”.
I feel like we are in a pseudo-affair,
Is it real or just a dance while you prepare?<p>Prepare for what? The future-- it daunts.
It all depends on you, and what exactly your wants.<p>I’d like to know, please don’t lead me on.
I need to make plans to carry on.<p>What I need is a promise a vow from you.
That you won’t carry on with any other
Woman and be true.<p>This means cutting off all communication okay?
From emails,calling, letters, starting today..<p>This also means your “non-affection” affairs.
If you can’t do this, please bid me adieu.<p>I don’t want empty promises, lies and deceit.
I want an agreement you are willing to keep.<p>So make your decision, don’t waffle anymore
I need to know whether to go out the door.<p>This decision hurts me, but there’s no other way.
I cannot stand to continue to live this way.
