What if...<p>you had never loved me?<p>What if...<p>you could not find it in yourself to forgive me?<p>What if...<p>I had chosen the emptiness and pain
forever
with someone who could never compare to you?<p>What if...<p>I had just shared my pain<p>when it first came?<p>I could have avoided so much pain.<p>I wouldn't need to worry about my terrible secret
becoming a juicy morsel to chew on<p>I wouldn't be so fearful of making a mess again<p>What if...<p>I could stop shutting down<p>when I need to tell you my feelings?<p>What if...<p>I could just be honest?<p>What if...<p>I could get past my selfishness<p>and show you the love that is still hidden<p>and locked away?<p>You are the better person--<p>You have always loved me when I am weak
and unlovable<p>You have always been there for me<p>Please help me find the key<p>to give you everything I have and am...<p>to stop "what if-ing" for the rest of my life...<p>God, give me the courage<p>to let myself feel passion again...<p>Help me on days like this when
regret for the past
threatens to swallow me whole
You rescued my very soul<p>You have given me incredible dreams<p>Help me to stop running...<p>to stop fearing failure<p>and embrace all You have for us.<p>Teach me to love the way You do.<p>Thank you for second chances and redemption.<p>Thank you for forgiveness extended<p>H, You, people who surprised me with their grace<p>You are bringing me to a new place<p>Let the baggage be cast off<p>Let me dance with abandon<p>in the love You designed <p>to be shared in marriage.<p>You have blessed me.<p>That is more than easy to see.<p>He needs me.<p>I need the courage to be me<p>and give my heart away to H again anew.<p>Your promises are true.<p>I wait upon You.