I am just beginning my divorce...H refused to give up cybersex and insists that he doesn't love me the way I want him to. I left end of Aug. and we still have not spoken or made any effort (far as I know) towards finishing this. Today is my first birthday without him in 4 years.

Avoiding You

No calls. No letters. No "accidental" meetings.
4 months past-not a word-
Will it last?
Lonely -but angry- I miss who I thought you were
If I see you-
Will I remember?
Or will I long too much for the past
and hope for too much change
and see who I thought you were
and fall for it all again?
No calls. Don't write. Can't meet...
or else I might.