It has come to that time...
I had to draw the line
My love is way too deep
But I wish no more to weep
For there's someone I love more
She's myself, my very core
How can I save you at all?
When you won't even see the wall?
The one you built so high
That brought darkness like the night
The farewell is not that far
The grieving had far begun
Still a glimmer of hope remains
Perhaps you'll really change
Just one way to really know
As you cross that line or so
Am I ready for this break?
As I fear the risks I take?
Still the line I drew is there
May my Savior give me strength.

shootingstar- that is so wonderful! I would love to send it to my WW if only she would listen.

STTSI

ST,
I'm glad you liked it. Have you read the one I titled "How long is enough?" It's another one that reflects my feelings of despair and frustrations. One lesson I've learned about relationships is that you may be able to control one's behavior but you can never control their feelings. As painful as it is to let go, sometimes it is the only way to gain back your own happiness...once you've weathered the storm.
Best of luck to you.

SS-

I missed that one before. I can feel your hurt and frustration, I am so sorry for what you are going through. So did you draw the line? What is your situation?

I ask myself everyday "how long must I wait." I wonder if today is the that I draw my line? Instead I sit here in frustration because I don't know what decision is the right one. Your writings echo my thoughts and feelings.

You truely have a gift!

STTSI

ST, I don't think my situation is the same with you. You see, I am the guilty party who was involved in an EA. The new poem I wrote "Blame me if you must" tells you a lot about my story. Meanwhile, here's the other poem "How long is enough" I think we share the same frustrations though different scenario. I would love so much to work it out with my H but he is so emotionally inept and unwilling to do his part. My love is slowly dying...I no longer know what to do to revive it so I gave him an ultimatum. If in 3 months he doesn't do anything about his alcohol problem and go to counseling with me, I'm filing for D.
How Long Is Enough?

How long is enough, I asked myself
Is it measured by days and time?
Should it be when pain is no longer felt?
But the sting of eternal tears are mine?

Should it be when each fiber of love has died?
And each word is just left unsaid?
Or when life itself had exhaust me
And I wish that time itself is dead?

Should I wait with unfaltering hopes
For a miracle to change my path?
And revive the unity that once had life
But today is now scorned with wrath?

How long should I go before I turn?
Should it be when the road ahead is gone?
Or accept that in life there's much to learn
Perhaps... enough had already come.

SS-I have read "How Long is Enough" many times. It still chokes me up because that is what I ask myself often. I actually started a thread in GQII about that.

I just read "Blame Me If You Must." You really have a talent! I wish I could do that but I can't get past that blank screen.

I am so sorry to hear about your situation, how far into you 3 months are you? Any improvement?

I will pray for you! Please keep writing.
STTSI

ST, I'm glad you liked my poems. Ironically, I don't see myself talented. I just basically put my feelings into words. As you can see, I don't use fragrant words or abstract. Others have the talent to do that. The line drawn ends April. I don't see any effort yet. He is in NY for a week due to a job. I'm sure he goes out drinking after work. He hasn't called for the last 4 days to see if we are still breathing. I have 3 kids from a previous marriage, and we have 1 together. I am also 8 yrs. older than he. He's agnostic, I'm christian. I can go on and on to identify all the red flags that I should have paid attention to before we got married but that wouldn't do me much good now. Still some hope remains...I'm sad but am not afraid to let go anymore. Talked to the kids about the potential divorce this weekend. The 3 older ones all said it really doesn't matter to them. He failed to bond with them as a father so I really am not surprised by the responses I got. Will keep you posted. How are you holding up?

SS-To me it does not matter how the poem flows or the words that are used. To me what matters is that the feelings come accross, indecision, fear, loneliness, etc. I get that and more from your writings!

Sorry to hear about you M. I also travel quite a lot for work, I told my WW that I would end my travel to save my M, she said not to bother. Bummer, huh?

Me, still in NC right now. Considering either a Dv or a legal seperation, not sure which I should do. I haven't had any major bouts of depression lately, not sure why???

Keep writing! I would love to hear your opinions on my situation.

Thanks
STTSI