I haven't done this in a very long time. Poetry used to be a hobby of mine. I welcome your comments....

PAIN

So many years, so much time
You called me yours, and I called you mine

Today you’re with me yet so far away
Not so long ago we both began to stray

Intentions the best and motives aside
Our life together we've taken in stride

Our Love a bond never to be broken
Our hearts of glass shattered and ruined

The family we’ve created, the Love we’ve destroyed
God gave us each other; WE created the void

For so many years we have been together
For so many years I thought nothing could be better

I’ve blamed you; I’ve blamed your past
Now I look at me and see the problem at last

I’ve created a void; I’ve created a riff
I’ve forced you to run, to seek and to drift

My heart has been broken, so many times
But it can’t measure the pain you must feel inside

“You gave me away” the words cut like ice
My heart aches, but that cannot suffice

You hate me, you resent me, you loathe my thought
I’m trying and struggling, but your Love cannot be bought

I pray you will stay, try to make it right
This is our life; to save it we must fight

Our children will be torn and crushed no doubt
As we continue our differences in this lifelong bout

Words will not show the changes I’ve made
Only time and actions will reveal my choice; I’ve stayed

The love you seek, the Love you deserve
I have destroyed your life, how could I have such nerve?

I tell you this now, from the bottom of my heart
Our Love for each other is the greatest way to start

You have sought and found someone dear
I have filled you with hate, with anger and fear

I do not blame you for your mistakes
Neither of us is divine; learning it takes

True dialogue has passed so long ago
Our true feelings hidden, like the leaves under the snow

Open and honest I promise to be
I ask the same in return, from you to me

This pain can pass; our Love can grow
This is a fact; this I know

Your feelings have changed, so painfully I see
Your heart has hardened; you are not In Love with me

My heart aches, my chest heaves, my eyes weep
You’re free to choose, to run, and to seek

Your newfound freedom you will enjoy
I will be here for you waiting, with our girl and our boy

Our family is strong because of me and of you
Our family will survive, I believe this to be true

This will not be easy, nor will it be fun
But it will be so much easier if neither of us run

My days of controlling and changing you are gone
All I want today is my wife; my dearest Dawn