ST, I wrote this poem today. I know you can relate. I made an appt. to see a counselor for myself next week. I think I'm depressed, just haven't felt like myself in the past 4 days. Poetry as usual brings comfort within. How are you?

I brace myself to the unknown
As I prepare to sail my ship
I close my eyes as fierced wind blows
And salty water touch my lips

I am prepared to meet the waves
Though strongly it will rock my stance
The roaring sound of thunder raves
Still I will sail and take a chance

The lightning bolts and pouring rain
May bring a shriver to my spine
But life itself is not in vain
So long as hope and faith is mine

There is no telling how long it'll take
Fot life's a journey in itself
As challenges for me await
How things could end, no one can tell

As I set sail one thing remains
I'm not alone to travel there
My Savior stays through tears and pain
And guide me to the light of day.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by shootingstar:
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I am prepared to meet the waves
Though strongly it will rock my stance
The roaring sound of thunder raves
Still I will sail and take a chance

The lightning bolts and pouring rain
May bring a shriver to my spine
But life itself is not in vain
So long as hope and faith is mine
</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">SS-I love this part! I have again found my faith and it is helping me to cope. The sermon last Sunday was about forgivness! How fitting, I wonder if I will ever forgive and trust again.

How am I? Unsure of a lot of things, one minute I want my W back the next minute I don't care to ever see her again. I do know that ubtil I am sure, I have to keep trying.

Sorry to hear about you, what is going on???

STTSI

I think you are my biggest fan! ha!ha! I'm not sure what went wrong. Something snapped last month. After I gave him the ultimatum, he went drinking 2 days later. I started seeing him differently eversince. I no longer see the kind man I used to give an excuse for. I just see a lazy inconsiderate man who doesn't give a hoot about feelings and relationships. We hardly talk now and I can't even stand being near him. I used to be a very affectionate person towards him and the kids, now I reserve it only for the kids.The kindness and understanding is now replaced by resentment. I am definitely changing and it scares me. )-: Your forgiveness will come in time but do not be alarmed if it takes a long time. It took me 8 years to forgive my ex who physically,verbally and emotionally abused me. My faith is my only armour so don't ever lose yours ok? keep me posted!