ST. here's another poem I wrote Friday night while working my 2nd job, my H was out drinking. This one definitely applies to both of us. I started counseling yesterday and will be starting on antidepressant as well. I need to be strong and take care of myself for the kids' sake. Tell me what you think of this one (-:

Unfinished Portrait by: Sann

An unfinished portrait, our life has been
Some colors missing, some unforseen
Events took place, we couldn't predict
A once soft heart, turned into a brick

Unanswered questions, they will remain
Truth may come out, but then again
Perhaps it's best to leave it as is
And turn a new page, forget what's missed

I'll hang this portrait to make me aware
Though never finished, the beauty is there
Some faded colors add memories too
It may be blury but the the picture is true

The picture itself may not make sense
I started the painting without pretense
Those abstract shapes will tell it all
As part of my life hangs on the wall.

SS- I think this one holds true for most of us here! That is the hardest thing about letting go, the unanswered questions of what might have been. Even to this day, I often wonder what if....?

My divorce is moving along and I will have to see my WW at least 2 more times before this is finished. I don't ever want to see her. Today is a hard day for me since one year ago we were happily engaged and planning our wedding! <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> Anyway I try to hold my head high and have faith that God knows what He is doing.

I am glad you started anti-D's, just remember they take a couple of weeks to kick in. Are you still seeing your counselor? I am so sory to hear that your H is not changing. Like you said, you have to be strong for your kids, but also for yourself!

If you ever need love advice or to vent, by all means post here. I mostly hang out at GQII, but I am around!

STTSI

PS-It is weird, now that I don't want my M or my WW the poems have stopped. Withour the pain I cannot write. Strange how the mind works.